Conditioned Persona Forgeting, Any Advice?

[Sangoku]

Hello. 

So i have a bit of a problem. 

A deeeeply rooted problem. 

Fora long time i had problems with remembering names. It takes me somtimes about 6 months to remember a name. But as i started to become self aware i noticed it is not the usual difficulty other have. it is psyhological by nature for me. 

As i am coming from a people pleader background and crave for emotional response due to lack in my family i think i developed a realy nasty emotional snack habit. Always when someone is engaging me in an emotional way when we get to know eachother my brain instinctlivly knowing the person will respond emotionally to me forgetting their name / look and it is a easy snack it duos exactly that. 

So after 30 years of doing it i am stuck without nasty conditioning that when i dont concentrate my brain tends to delete the ppl i find emotionally engaging. I have no idea how to approach this emotional problem because i have no positive feeedback look to change my sbconcies behavior. 

 

Any advice?