Kriya yoga, what is happening to me??

[ROOBIO]

Ok, so since starting my Kriya practice.

Shit is getting fucked up lol.

i started with the preliminaries, alternate nostril breathing, sushumana breathing and have been doing that for a week, as well as Mahamudras.

My ego is going insanse, I haven’t felt such deep fear before, all my addictions to sugar, drugs, alcohol are coming back. My diet was good and now it is slipping, the effort to exercises has increased massively. It feels like there is a gravitational pull, pulling me down to the fucking floor.

I am new to kriya so has anyone experienced this or got any advice?

[Leo Gura]

Someone link him the ego backlash video.

[Enizeo]

@ROOBIO Don't worry, you're doing fine. Progress looks like a sine-wave with an upwards trend. In a few weeks you'll be on top of your game again, a few weeks later you'll binge on porn. But in a few years you will look back and be astonished by how far you've actually come. Speaking from personal experience lol

[Kamo]

@ROOBIO

 

[inFlow]

It's totally normal. I've gotten some ego backlashes as well... Three weeks of yoga led me to huge growth and boom I'm off binge smoking weed for two weeks + stopped doing yoga and fell back even lower. That's some REAL growth right here!

Kryia practice is SUPER potential and SUPER strong even for beginners. I would recommend to do it every second day, and on your off days just do a simple breathing meditation. I've noticed that doing Kriya everyday does grow you A LOT, but damn you just can't handle so much change and growth so you just fall back. Just take it slow.

Just notice how subtly you wanna go back to your old habits, if you can just pain yourself through, but take it easy cause you have no idea how powerful the ego actually is.

[Setty]

@ROOBIO Ego backlashes are a good reminder of what you are deling with and gives you a good appreciation of true mastery. I would suggest to practise self love a little bit. It's okay to enjoy the little things in life. It is a part of us that doesn't need to be eliminated completely. And anyway if you try to brute force through it with sheer will power alone you will crack and it will get you behind much much more than where you are now. 

And remember when you go back to bad habits you don't have to go all pathologic about it. You can enjoy some alcohol, sugar and other without having it control your entire life.

[ROOBIO]

Wow yeah! I need to research ego back lash into more depth. Thank you so much guys. Love you all