Day one, August 14, 2019 Time : 15 minutes Sat quietly for fifteen minutes and tried to focus on the sound of the fan. Thoughts were racing, and it didn't help that my husband woke me up with a cup of coffee... I love when he does that so all is forgiven ?....  Thought trains raced about the upcoming trip, and about work. They were mostly trying to be cathartic though, and trying to help me be ok with certain things going on. Every time I caught myself on a train, I redirected attention back to the fan and to  connecting with myself. I don't 100% understand connecting with myself, which is why self inquiry has  been hard for me. But I figured I'll relate it to feeling the body and the  emotional sensations in my chest.  At one point I began wondering how long it has been, and when will the bell sound. But mostly I was patient and completed the 15 minutes without getting restless.