By khalifa
in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God,
everytime i go to bed, i just vibrate it's like my body is in shock and afraid to go to bed thinking it's going to die, that's what i think it could be some sort of ptsd, at first i just thought it was the 5meo effect on it all day wondering when it would wear out, but people keep telling me that it's not possible for 5meo trips to go on for this long
it feels like i'm tripping every random 5-10-20min
at the first 2 days i felt like my body was mostly leaving/shaking itself on bed (very annoying and it makes my mind active like wide awake while body is fatigued), 3rd and 4th day it's just vibrating uncomfortably
earlier tonight it's like i almost relived the experience the same sensation i had very similar to when i injected and fell unconscious, (this happened on the previous days too but for some reason this felt a little newer stronger) i just kept breathing and breathing but i could not fall asleep,
at this point i'm still confused is this just a body memory that it's freaking out thinking it's about to die like ptsd memory? or is it just 5meo active in my blood stream randomly being stuck and activated at my intestine (even though i did poop more than 4 times already)
my body still shakes/vibrates when i'm not in bed now, didn't feel that on 2nd and 3rd day, i'm very fatigued and losing my sanity i don't like where i am and what did i do to myself, i was already convinced that we are all one nothing and infinity not sure why i had to jump the gun, no need to prove this to anyone..
i also like logically i wasn't that scared of the trip, i just was breathing and breathing trying to stay conscious through out the trip after i injected, i didn't like letting go, but it's clearly taken clear on my physical muscle memory? i don't even know that's the case why does my body fear it more than i don't fear it mentally? i just felt like appreciating life more after the first hour and a half after the 5meo wore off, but then later on it kept hitting whenever i lay'd down on bed.. so hectic still on going
bless you all
i read melatonin can activate dmt? if taken within first 2 days, i'm kinda scared to take it now should i just go for xanax instead ?
edit: as for dose it could be anywhere from 15mg or more i think i messed up on scaling it right estimating up to 25-28mg