Why not just meditate all day

[Truthority]

We wake up and think today will be different

When we read that book or take that course

Or after we have done x y and z for 5-10 years THEN we'll be there

There are moments during the day i wonder why do i even bother

same old shit

eating shitting pissing drinking writing listening watching

time goes by

If only i could realize what I know is there

you have these moments of insight when everything makes sense

everything is beautiful and you feel this sadness that people get old and never get this

and everyone is so god damn busy that they dont even give themselves a chance


I ask myself why now

After all these years of watching the discussions on here

I always wanted to join and say what i have to say but then i thought what's the point

Nobody really ever has anything to say


The internet and the outernet

full of words and sounds and people fucking and killing and writing about books about all this and understanding why people are the way they are and voting and hoping and preying and doing evil shit and trying to survive

 

even now you are there staring at this screen and all these words that someone wrote you will probably never meet

you think you know me or get a feeling from something i said

Like when i watch Leo's videos

There are moments when i am really connecting and moments where i want to turn it off and i hate him so much and i start this war with reality and everything and the body gets all weird and it's like there's a fire going on and then i remember some vipassana shit and label it as unpleasant or whatever

i am envious of people who can just do their instagram shit and meet people for drinks and coffee and love the buzz of nightlife

I can't stand any of that stuff

it makes me feel invisible and unimportant

i'm such a narcisstic fucking piece of love junk


have this whole system where i have made spiritual practise some kind of progress thingy like tony robbins or something

 

God damn i'm 36, should get a wife and pump out some kids


Buy a big house with golden retrievers and a nice big TV and coach little league

 

gun to head BOOM

 

wake up in another dream

 

this one is much nicer

 

Anyways, yeah


Why do we do all this STUFF?

i mean really. 

Serious question. 


Be open and learn. 

Shadows.

 

Devil. 


Absolute Love. 

Look how perfect this sound is of these keys clacking and these thoughts riding like snakes into your brain. 


This is not how it was supposed to go. 


I was supposed to just come here and be all enligthened and stuff and HELP people 

 

 

Again. 


THE SAME THING


me writing about me

Where's the love?

Where's the service?


Just feeding the fire


I don't know any other way man. 



All this stuff. Technology. Movies. Religion. Pussy. Frozen veggies. Pirate bay. Finland and Thailand and Presidents and Spiritual Gurus and little creatures running around outside trying to not get eaten or run over by some truck and just to FUCK AND EAT?? God damn it GOD. Why are you doing this to us? Why am i doing this to YOU?


Wait a minute...



God. I am God. 


Aaaaaa the light

 

 

holy mother of heaven

 

 

Okay okay okay i get you we all get you 


We are all just light travelling somewhere, nobody knows where

colliding into things and going through everything


This mind and body so solid but it's really nothing because everything is constantly vibrating the whole universe is probably a guitar string or something played by some genius who's still just tuning up




i dont know how to do this forum thing

i dont know how to be a normal citizen and get excited by things i dont get at all


i keep buying all these books

and practising my stuff

I dont know why

 

we're all dying


And what about your future memories?

I mean is everyone gonna think about all those great times when they were young and staring at a fucking screen? 



What are we doing guys/gals


SCREEN MEMORIES


creating and connecting to make us feel more alive?

 

you kind of get why those monks just go into a monastery

 

i would be lying if i wasn't seriously considering it


everything is just so distant... like sand grasping... OCEAN waves come and it's all gone again


All this work for nothing.


Somewhere an elephant is weeping.

[Fishy]

I don't know, but I enjoy the ride.  ?

[Fede83]

Pure gold love it

[Anton Rogachevski]

@Truthority

Thank you for sharing dear fellow, I can really sympathize. Very honest and true.

[Aeris]

I m still waitting to put my soul in a machine who will provide me with Infinite high.

Ride that's all

[kag101]

Sounds like you're depressed, huh, buddy? 

Have you been tripping? 

[AlldayLoop]

11 minutes ago, kag101 said:

Have you been tripping? 

I feel like reading this damn post was a trip in and of itself (no pun intended x2)

In all seriousness, though, name me ONE “spiritual master” who has not had these doubts, fears, tribulations, whatever you want to call them. And those so called “carefree people”  like the ones living it up at the shopping malls and amusement parks, and the ones partying it up in Vegas (I’m looking at you Leo), do you think they don’t have any doubts either?

[Gili Trawangan]

We are creating a new reality every second. Literally. There is no consistency to any experience or perspective. There is no person! Accepting this is the beginning of detachment. And even then there will be moments of doubt, sadness, melancholy, whatever.. the world will seem bleak. Until it doesn't. A ray of sunshine appears or whatever and you realize "oh... there's nowhere to go, nothing to become... and that's fine". And then the doubt returns and the cycle goes on. Realize that it isn't you! You are all of it! Every emotion, every scenery, every thought, every single thing ever experienced. And at the same time none of it. You can rest in that knowing.

[WelcometoReality]

@Truthority Yeah sometimes it's hard to wake up from the collective unconscious because you feel like an outcast. Not normal.

10 hours ago, Truthority said:

After all these years of watching the discussions on here

I always wanted to join and say what i have to say but then i thought what's the point

Nobody really ever has anything to say

I can relate to this. Is there really anything to say? Ultimately anything we say isn't true and also every perspective has some truth to it. So really what's the point? I guess there really isn't any.

[Gili Trawangan]

8 minutes ago, WelcometoReality said:

I can relate to this. Is there really anything to say? Ultimately anything we say isn't true and also every perspective has some truth to it. So really what's the point? I guess there really isn't any.

I feel like at some point we have to get over this "what's the point" business. Just say whatever you WANT to say. And if you don't want to say anything, don't.

I really think it's that simple.

[WelcometoReality]

1 hour ago, Gili Trawangan said:

I feel like at some point we have to get over this "what's the point" business. Just say whatever you WANT to say. And if you don't want to say anything, don't.

I really think it's that simple.

Yes, but to get over it one needs to get into it first.

[Harikrishnan]

19 minutes ago, Joseph Maynor said:

Just remember this -- you can't take anything with you when you die.  So, design a cool life for yourself and the world and don't be too hard on yourself.  This is the good time of your life.  Imagine you're building a little video game character's life.   If you're a designer or an engineer type, life is a playground of opportunities.  Play the game; own the game.

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[Truth Addict]

@Truthority

You just need to transcend the mind. That's all.

How? By becoming the mind.

[Esoteric]

@Truthority You summed up the spiritual path well in one post. I think a lot of us can relate to that post.