Self Inquiry and ego backlash

[ed370025]

Has anyone experienced a ego backlash after a few days of doing in self inquiry? About a month ago I did some self inquiry and I really began to feel like I did not know where “I” was, It was freeing yet a little scary. A few days later  I noticed myself succumbing to  boredom and addiction. I know that the ego does this to survive but I don’t understand why will it do that if self inquiry was making me feel “free” ?

[Truth Addict]

Ego backlash is a concept related to taking certain routes in life. In short, it means that what goes up must come down. It means balance and homeostasis. So, in terms of Self-Actualization, ego backlash is the temporary loss of control and motivation that was thought to be had.

There isn't such a thing as ego backlash, because there is no such thing as ego to begin with.

The goal with growing oneself is to watch the process happening and take notes of everything, especially the new, sneaky, or nuanced stuff.

The goal is not to remain in a certain state. The goal is to detach from all states and watch them like in third person.

The more you watch, the more you learn, the more you grow, the more aware you become, the more enlightened you become, the better life you will have and share with others.

You will notice after a while that it is a pendulum pattern, you can't keep it in one place, it will inevitably return. And when you force it to go further in a certain direction, the backlash will be stronger.

However, growth happens spontaneously with age and experience. You just need to be present for it to sink inside of you.

Edited August 8, 2019 by Truth Addict

[FoxFoxFox]

@ed370025 Are you sure you did self-inquiry correctly? The point of that method is to realize that the "I", the persona as a whole, is a thought. Knowing "it's not located anywhere" itself is a thought. Once all these are understood, then what happens? If done correctly, this non-realization should create real significant changes that makes Ego-backlash completely nullified. The mind should give-up the attempt at understanding the Self spontaneously, resulting in pure-being. Then the Self will be automatically evident. 

[AlldayLoop]

3 hours ago, FoxFoxFox said:

@ed370025 Are you sure you did self-inquiry correctly? 

My problem exactly. There’s a “me” trying to do self-inquiry correctly. 

[FoxFoxFox]

@AlldayLoop Explore the idea that "me" is an illusion/thought in other avenues. For example, consider how you don't always think that you are an "I" at all times. Many times throughout the day when you are engaged in focused activity, you "forget" yourself, completely absorbed in the task at hand. That sort of exploration should allow you to see how ALL notions of being an "I" or a "person" is rooted in thoughts. 

Then apply the same to the self inquiry process. Who is this "I" that is inquiring its own nature? Is it more than a thought? Is the reason for there not being an answer when you inquire into the source of the "I" anything else than that there really is no source for it? Allow that to really sink in. 

What ends up happening is the relaxation of the mind and a complete change in perspective. When there is no longer an "I" in the picture, things will become clear on their own.