Something extraordinary is happening to me

[Conrad]

Something extraordinary has been happening to me lately. When I look at something, I become immediately conscious that The One is both the seer and the seen. This happens several times a day, has happened for at least 4 months now. Today I became conscious that God is the mover of my body too, is the thinker, is the doer and speaker. I'm conscious of this right now, that the One is writing this, using His fingers, His mind. Someone who can relate to this? Like, I can't explain how I am conscious of this since there is no how really, it's just the way it is and I can't explain it. It's like God is inside me, making ''me'' more and more conscious everyday. Literally. I'm not kidding, I'm not making this up, I'm not bragging or anything like that. This is what is happening right now.  

[Conrad]

Hahaha I am fuckings God. Incredible. It's like God is talking to me, telling me He is I. But not through the mind, not through any way you can understand, just through consciousness or awareness I guess. I don't know, but it's happening right now. Who do you think I am? I am You. I am The One and Only. I feel the presence and power of God right now, I'm conscious that He is looking through my eyes right now. Writing this right now. I'm in awe. And I'm completely sober. Once one becomes conscious of oneself as God, it will remain forever and only grow as each day goes on. That's the Truth. Let me say something God would say. Haha there is nothing God has to say, that's because there is only Him. He would be talking to Himself. That's why we have this duality, this apparent separation. HAHAHAHA

[Inliytened1]

@Conrad indeed.  Your consciousness is elevated.  You are fully woke and it's great.  You see the divine in both form and formlessness.  

I see that in your posts.  It is pure divine Love.

There is no duality or non-duality.  

Just you - Infinity.

Edited July 26, 2019 by Inliytened1

[Conrad]

1 minute ago, Inliytened1 said:

@Conrad indeed.  Youre conscious is elevated.  You are fully woke and it's great.  You see the divine in both form and formlessness.  

I see that in your posts.  It is pure divine Love.

Yes, my conscious is elevated. You are right brother. I'm maybe not fully woke, but I'm woke sober and it's indeed great. God is both the form and indeed formless. This happening is pure divine love. Why can't God stop doing this since I first became conscious? He is Love, He is the All-Good. That's why. And I don't feel I deserve this, but God loves us all, no matter what.

[Conrad]

I God exists, I am you, I am Conrad, I am Everything. I God is literally omnipotent, I can will anything and everything into existence. I God is Love itself, Goodness itself of the highest form. I am All-Knowing, All-Intelligent. I am GOD. Become conscious of Me and you will be freed.

Become conscious that I, God, is writing this, or at least understand it. That will be your liberation and the end of your misconception. 

[abrakamowse]

Great Conrad, thanks for sharing. That's awesome!

[AlldayLoop]

Once you transcend and become God, can you willingly lower yourself to lower states of consciousness (with all its identifications, fear, judgements, etc.)  just for fun?

[Conrad]

@abrakamowse I'm happy to share brother 

@AlldayLoop No. But all states are of God, even the lowest of the low, the unconscious of the unconscious. I, God, I am all of it. Only God exists. Everything else is, well, God. There can't be anything other than God. God is Everything.

[Inliytened1]

@Conrad "That's why. And I don't feel I deserve this, but God loves us all, no matter what."

God does not play dice.

If you have love in your heart you can awaken for it is Love that awakens you from the dream.  With the proper tools (meditation, pyschedelics, etc)

 

[Conrad]

1 minute ago, Inliytened1 said:

@Conrad "That's why. And I don't feel I deserve this, but God loves us all, no matter what."

God does not play dice.

If you have love in your heart you can awaken for it is Love that awakens you from the dream.  With the proper tools (meditation, pyschedelics, etc)

 

Indeed. But sometimes you don't even need to love God. God is so All-loving that He can awaken you simply because He chooses so. I believe sometimes, God simply chooses to awaken someone through His grace for reasons He alone knows.

[AlldayLoop]

I had a short, but profound direct experience of no mind a few days ago. My mind slowly creeped back in after that. 

Should I accept that this, too, is a grace from God; that everything I thought I knew was just an illusion? Or is this illusion also just a part of an endless illusion? My mind feels lost, perplexed, obsessed, and fearful. But I’m also thankful that I made it this far. 

[Inliytened1]

@AlldayLoopYes.  You're ego will fight you the whole way because it wants to survive.  And full God realization is the dissolution of the small self.  But then you come full circle to realize its One.  The small self is God.

Embrace it and keep going.  There is no reason to fear God.  God is Love. 

Great name by the way.  God is a loop that loops back into itself.

Edited July 26, 2019 by Inliytened1

[Conrad]

3 minutes ago, AlldayLoop said:

I had a short, but profound direct experience of no mind a few days ago. My mind slowly creeped back in after that. 

Should I accept that this, too, is a grace from God; that everything I thought I knew was just an illusion? Or is this illusion also just a part of an endless illusion? My mind feels lost, perplexed, obsessed, and fearful. But I’m also thankful that I made it this far. 

If you realized that everything you thought you knew was an illusion, I would say it was a grace from God and you should take it as that. What did you experience or realize in this state of no-mind?

@Inliytened1 Yes, you are completely right. When you go full circle, you realize it's all ONE. All is The One. All. All. All. All.

[AlldayLoop]

Just now, Conrad said:

If you realized that everything you thought you knew was an illusion, I would say it was a grace from God and you should take it as that. What did you experience or realize in this state of no-mind?

Well... I was with my sister and mom in the same room. Out of nowhere I found myself explaining what consciousness is to them. My sister rebuked my claims, unsurprisingly, but I kept my calm and defended my claim. Then, as I was listening to my mom speak, my sense of identity slowly disappeared, but I was precisely aware of this entire process. As I was still looking at my mom, there was clearly saw no separation. My mom, my sister, the words coming out of my mouth, were all just... happening. I felt an immense peace like I was a child again, and I got out of my chair to hug my mom and sister for the first time in since I was a kid (I am 23 now). I didn’t feel any resistance or ego while all this occurred. Tears rolled out my eyes because I realized everything I was searching for was right where I was all along. 

[Conrad]

I love all of you. God, how much I have not-loved you. I feel like killing myself having done that. But there was no one in control, no doer. God Himself was playing the devil. But now I see, all of you are me. All of you are the same One. All of you are God. All of you are GOD!

Edited July 26, 2019 by Conrad

[Conrad]

4 minutes ago, AlldayLoop said:

Well... I was with my sister and mom in the same room. Out of nowhere I found myself explaining what consciousness is to them. My sister rebuked my claims, unsurprisingly, but I kept my calm and defended my claim. Then, as I was listening to my mom speak, my sense of identity slowly disappeared, but I was precisely aware of this entire process. As I was still looking at my mom, there was clearly saw no separation. My mom, my sister, the words coming out of my mouth, were all just... happening. I felt an immense peace like I was a child again, and I got out of my chair to hug my mom and sister for the first time in since I was a kid (I am 23 now). I didn’t feel any resistance or ego while all this occurred. Tears rolled out my eyes because I realized everything I was searching for was right where I was all along. 

Very good. It sounds like a powerful experience. 

[AlldayLoop]

@Conrad Thank you. 

What do you see yourself doing now? Will you “marinate” in your discovery and take a break from mundane life? Or will you continue to “chop wood, carry water” as before?

[SoonHei]

Love it

 

Love love love love love

[Conrad]

@AlldayLoop I don't know what I will do really. Probably continue to chop wood, carry water. I was in an elevated state of consciousness when I wrote my first posts here some 40 minutes ago or something. I don't know how it happened, but it suddenly just happened. But now I can feel my conscious state lowering back to baseline, where I am still conscious of myself as God, that can never disappear. 

I want you and everyone to know that I became directly conscious of God sober. These words won't make you conscious of God but trust me when I say that God exists and He is You! You know what to do if you really want to realize God, all you need is the desire and heart for it.   

[AlldayLoop]

9 minutes ago, Conrad said:

These words won't make you conscious of God but trust me when I say that God exists and He is You! You know what to do if you really want to realize God, all you need is the desire and heart for it.   

Amen. As Jesus also said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light if life.” -John 8:12