Entered a black hole in meditative sleep

[Aakash]

I tend to sometimes uncontrollably have a meditative sleep before actually falling asleep 

In this particular meditative sleep, i entered a black hole 4-5 times, each time with greater intensity. 

it has been my first experience of dying 

if i'm being honest, its made me question 

why i'm even doing any of this 

I'm not trying to escape suffering, I can't even say its acceptable to die just to find the truth anymore

after i woke up (it was a 3 hour mini-nap [30 minutes ago]) I can't even comprehend what i have been trying to do for the last six years and why 

I've been stabilising in void for the past 6 hours, however, your experience still remains with void so its not actually that scary 

But with this black hole, i was sucked into the absence of a present moment. I was gone aswell as the present moment being gone and i was the only thing there.

Whilst i was in it, it was fine 

after i woke up after coming out of the black hole, and then woke up from the meditative sleep. 

I can't see me going forward with death, its made me reconsider. 

However, i'm not trying to make a hasty decision, from a six year history of which is now complete stupidity. 

Does anyone have any guidance, perhaps? 

 

Edited July 19, 2019 by Aakash

[Inliytened1]

15 minutes ago, Aakash said:

I tend to sometimes uncontrollably have a meditative sleep before actually falling asleep 

In this particular meditative sleep, i entered a black hole 4-5 times, each time with greater intensity. 

it has been my first experience of dying 

if i'm being honest, its made me question 

why i'm even doing any of this 

I'm not trying to escape suffering, I can't even say its acceptable to die just to find the truth anymore

after i woke up (it was a 3 hour mini-nap [30 minutes ago]) I can't even comprehend what i have been trying to do for the last six years and why 

I've been stabilising in void for the past 6 hours, however, your experience still remains with void so its not actually that scary 

But with this black hole, i was sucked into the absence of a present moment. I was gone aswell as the present moment being gone and i was the only thing there.

Whilst i was in it, it was fine 

after i woke up after coming out of the black hole, and then woke up from the meditative sleep. 

I can't see me going forward with death, its made me reconsider. 

 

 

First off that's great - it sounds - and correct me if I'm misinterpreting - that you experienced enlightenment or formlessness.  Because yes a non-dual state is the death of the ego but consciousness as the Godhead.  So there is the bliss of Being which bursts into divine form and realizations.

So what do you mean go forward with death?

Edited July 19, 2019 by Inliytened1

[Inliytened1]

If you are still processing it all that's fine just take your time no need to respond at the moment.

[Aakash]

@Inliytened1 i'm not sure what i experienced, hence i'm asking to get some information. 

Does it resonate with your experience? 

I'm not sure how to describe it. what happened was i fused into my direct experience. which gave my direct experience- no inherent qualities. 

11 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

yes a non-dual state is the death of the ego but consciousness as the Godhead.  So there is the bliss of Being which bursts into divine form and realizations.

Yes this is void in my opinion. Because there is a void of nothing, masked over everything. because you know its made out of emptiness

11 minutes ago, Inliytened1 said:

So what do you lean go forward with death?

Sorry what do you mean? 

Nahh i'm not processing because i'm still calm inside of void LOL. 

Edited July 19, 2019 by Aakash

[Inliytened1]

@Aakash i meant what do you mean go forward with death?

To answer your question - everyone's non-dual states are unique but generally you will have certain realizations.  Not all at once as it is too much for the finite to absorb.

You're consciousness is probably still elevated so you may have them over the next few days - even if it was a glimpse.  Glimpses can be very powerful because you have mystically expanded consciousness.

[cetus]

@Aakash Welcome to the 4th state of consciousness.

[Aakash]

@Inliytened1 I'm not sure, i see no inherent value in such an action. 

The transaction is life for death simultaneously death for life - the benefits are a quasi spiritual-direct experience. 

Yeah it seems there is a connection between understanding the true god and the difference between him and your finite god form. The more that your qualities are tailored to the true god, the more "nondual-dual-god collapsed particle-complex"is 

Yeah i've been getting stuck in eternity in my dreams. I wake up and it feels like i've been sleeping for a week, but its only been two hours. 

 

 

 

Edited July 20, 2019 by Aakash

[Aakash]

@cetus56 So like... what is it ? 

[Inliytened1]

@Aakash if you have to ask it's not it...  Give this time and see.  

Edited July 20, 2019 by Inliytened1

[cetus]

Just now, Aakash said:

@cetus56 So like... what is it ? 

@Aakash No words can't describe it. 

[Aakash]

@cetus56 Lol its not even about the words! the words are coming out of the black hole, never to return to them. 

its like a pair of swimming goggles, you put it on and all you can see is through the swimming goggles. but like, the person forgets they even put on the goggles because time disappears. 

Edited July 20, 2019 by Aakash

[Aakash]

@Inliytened1  I give up, this is a never ending process. I honestly feel like this is it for me. The god particle is annoying LOL 

Edited July 20, 2019 by Aakash

[Inliytened1]

@Aakash if i was you...as smart as you..i would do anything in my power to get some 5-MeO.   

[Key Elements]

@Aakash if you say you've entered the "black hole," then you would be able to describe what is "Riding the Ox Backwards" quite easily.

[Aakash]

@Key Elements  LOL!  VERY FUCKING INTERESTING!! yeah that's it bro. riding the ox backwards is exactly the fucking never ending process of the god particle! LOL. 

However, it is exactly what i thought riding the ox backwards would get me. However, it's not the end. There is a process easily overlooked and that is that you can ALWAYS embed understanding into your mystical experience. 

[Aakash]

@Inliytened1 could be an idea, but i'm reaching the end of this spiritual lifestyle. I can't maintain it at all.  My base consciousness was already V.high from a young age. i was stage yellow by age 16, (i'm 24 now) it took so long to make sense of all of this. So i haven't done all the lower stage things. Which means, my life is going to invert, the shift is coming. D.DAY is coming! So its a-bit pointless getting entrenched any deeper. Not when i've been having mystical experiences un-wanting-ly in my sleep for about 2 months now. its a lose/ lose situation from here boys lol. 

Low income job or existential loneliness

unstable dream chasing  or taking care of base needs  

LOL, its pretty obvious what is the right option. its a benefit anyway that i managed to understood who i was and why i came to be this way. 

ahahah such is life. 

[abrakamowse]

Maybe this can help?

The Void As Contemplative Experience

http://paulbrunton.org/notebooks/23/8

[Aakash]

@abrakamowse i'll check it out tomorrow and let you know! THANKS! 

[abrakamowse]

@Aakash Cool!

[Key Elements]

6 hours ago, Aakash said:

@Key Elements  However, it's not the end. There is a process easily overlooked and that is that you can ALWAYS embed understanding into your mystical experience. 

No kidding. If you look at the Ox Herding Pics, there are pics beyond "Riding the Ox Backwards." They symbolize integration and teaching through cunning showing/actions of "Riding the Ox Backwards."