I can't even meditate anymore

[krockerman]

I am a 21-year-old man and I have followed actualized.org for a year now. and about a 30 days ago I heard about hell realms. I can't even meditate anymore. before I thought "cool I want to go deeper" when something weird happens with my consciousness when I meditate because I am afraid I that consciousness might enter a hell realm with the pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia but 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times worse.  before I took LSD i and I got so many lessons. I talked to a guy who was an ex psychedelic guy. he told me (don't know the drug) told me he had a trip experience the most painful thing on this earth + 1 level (i have read a little about this and i have talked to other on this forum about this issue. Most painfull thing +1 level seems pretty common) after that, I have not even touched a psychedelic. I don't care that my life is a hell realm. There are much worse than my life. And living my life not experience anything "special" like ego death etc is the only way to stay out of the hell realms. When I die I have 0 control. I might miss the good stuff, but I am willing to offer that. yesterday when weird things started to happen the fear of the pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia came up. I thought "should I go into this or not" "I want to but I am too afraid" 

 

what do you think @Leo Gura?

Edited July 19, 2019 by krockerman

[OctagonOctopus]

I would not know peace if I did not know suffering. 

[krockerman]

7 minutes ago, OctagonOctopus said:

I would not know peace if I did not know suffering. 

I do not need to experience a freaking Hell realm to know What suffering Feels like

[OctagonOctopus]

@krockerman

You could also experience a realm of infinite love, it comes with the territory you are treading in.

[krockerman]

1 minute ago, OctagonOctopus said:

@krockerman

You could also experience a realm of infinite love, it comes with the territory you are treading in.

It's not worth the risk of entering a Hell realm (meditation only No substances)

[OctagonOctopus]

@krockerman

Good idea, meditate more get into tune with you being pure consciousness, eventually you will realize even if you did enter a hell realm it couldn't hurt the real you. 

[krockerman]

17 minutes ago, OctagonOctopus said:

@krockerman

Good idea, meditate more get into tune with you being pure consciousness, eventually you will realize even if you did enter a hell realm it couldn't hurt the real you. 

It's not about being hurt It's about experience suffering. If i enter a Hell realm While tripping i am not gonna get hurt But i gonna suffer. 

[Ananta]

I've never taken a psychedelic, they aren't necessary, imho.

As far as hell realms...oh my goodness, please chill out.

Edited July 19, 2019 by Anna1

[Truth Addict]

Acceptance/surrendering alone can make a devil turn into an angel.

Acceptance/surrendering alone can make all hells turn into paradise.

Love suffering to death.

❤️

[OctagonOctopus]

@krockerman

Suffering is always a choice, connect back to your true nature and you will see.  @Truth Addict  speaks the truth 

[fridjonk]

@krockerman Just accept this hell realm and move on. You'll come out of it million times stronger, and that strength can be helpful.