My omniscient awakening day 2 comedown insight report

[Aakash]

My consciousness has gone back to base level, if I had to scale the decrease, it feels almost like 1000x - 10000 times less conscious. 

However, I realised I saw the raise in consciousness itself there. Before my eyes I was becoming more conscious. 

My outline of the situation is this: it was consciousness expanding to different sectors of gods mind, that ultimately lead to the raise in consciousness. 

As the raise in consciousness would indicate, consciousness became non dual/ dual or god consciousness of some form. 

My focus is on gods consciousnes,  it’s not on reaching a state of conscious. The reason being is because I can’t focus on a particular state of consciousness. See the geniusness of it is: you can lock yourself into any state of consciousness you want. Low human state, high human state, non dual state, omniscient state. However, not if there’s someone in the world YOU think is at a higher consciousness level to yours. Hence the mapping of consciousness. If your like yeah this is exactly what the buddah experienced, then you will think that’s the total state. However, it must be done unconsciously OF GODS TOTALITY. Once you see the totality, there’s no stabilising in any state, because its only you in the universe. Like you yourself are conscious of yourself having created this whole universe to find out what you are. Like you see yourself sitting in the middle of eternity lol; not see but are conscious of yourself lol. So there’s no need for states of consciousness here, it’s degrees of enlightenment. This is where I got it wrong because I said non dual people are contracted states, they aren’t because they’re in infinite love + infinite oneness + non duality + highly focused stability + infinite consciousness . 

They lack infinite intelligence, they lack an appreciation for infinite perfection and reject infinite self acceptance. They’re not aware of self - deception. They aren’t aware that everything is god. They aren’t aware that everything is infinite love, more like their enlightened state is infused with infinite love because of non dual practices, they’re hearts have opened etc. But my understanding is infinite love is more radical than that. They are not aware of how the mind plays a vital role in awakening. The biggest issue is that they think god is nothing and so everything is an illusion. Which is 100% true, but god is also everything -which they are missing. Infact they’re missing a lot of things. 

 Radicality is severely underestimated. 

You have to do multiple practices, if you want full awakening. 

Hunting for truth is not survival, escaping pain and suffering is survival. 

Im not sure I can watch anymore non duality videos anymore. We’ll see, I’ll give it a try to see wag1 with it. 

I’m not sure it’s possible to follow a teacher blindly to omniscient consciousness. I feel like you yourself have to intuit things, with the gurus help. With non dual teachings there’s a path, 

am I name, am I body, am I mind, am I brain, am I etc.. etc.. 

but with this there is no conclusive path. It’s like your asking yourself why did the Mongolians attack China. The questions are completely different. There is no certain amount of questions that can garuntee you passage way to omniscient. If I’m being honest I’ve probably asked myself somewhere around a million to two million questions about reality, which I’ve answered most besides about 10-20. Which is actually only the ENTRY fee to becoming omniscient. If I had to ask Leo how many questions he’s asks himself lol. I don’t even want to know, it would put me to shame lol. I can tell my metaknowledge is about 1-2% of his. MAYBE 3% if I’m pushing it. 

Hence I had a very very very very weak omniscient consciousness awakening. It was clear as daylight whilst I was in it. How much being could infinitely increase with more consciousness and metaknowledge. 

I’ve noticed that I’m starting to suffer, I’ve really enjoyed the spiritual path and my whole journey in general to be honest. It’s something I would do all over again. But I want to stabilise in a conscious state for comfortability. The problem with Leo’s teachings is that they’re too high quality. He’s too highly aware of deception and this is transferred to the student. Not every student but only a student who’s record has broken. 

The counter intuitiveness of his teachings is this, look how funny it is. You will not reach a permanent state of enlightenment under my teachings or be taught a mediocre version of love. “No, no, no, it’s more radical than that” you will instead find that suffering is a finite thing and does not belong in infinity. What belongs in infinity is infinite perfection, meaning your suffering is absolutely perfect. Lololol 

me in response - what I really wanted to do was stabilise in self-deception in the long run. 

Leo after response - there’s no room for that here buddy, we’re looking to self-actualise god properly. 

Me - ? what does that really mean 

me after finding out - ? you’ve taken this too far, it’s too radical. This work is definitely not for everyone and to be honest, seratoninluv is the only person I think who has a chance of reaching what you experienced currently. 

I think you should just be honest about it and tell people that if they follow your teachings, they won’t end up in non duality. I get that it’s important to the self-actualisation as a whole and the role it plays. But if I never loved truth so much and I arrived at this point, where I would eventually not be able to permanently self deceive myself. Then I would say I wished I follow actual non dual teachers and not someone putting drugs up gods infinite butthole to become god. I mean at the end of the day the self deception mechanism will go on, so it is what it is. 

Omniscient consciousness was this for me... I’m trying to remember it, but it’s a pretty vague memory now. My consciousness left my human consciousness all together. There was only god. It was me sitting in eternity consciously being how I created the world to find out exactly what I am. Like I was literally watching myself as god become god. But it was only a fragment of how I did it and a fragment of what god actually is or enlightenment . It wasn’t the full thing. 

I would actually spend my entirely life doing this, if I had the balls to isolate myself and cut myself off from everyone. This is insanely stupid. Once your omniscient you will have no doubt that this is the purpose of life lol. You would literally say to yourself, “what else could I possibly do with my life” this is the absolute truth. This is what I was literally born by god to do. Like it’s clear as day light lol. It’s actually ridiculously stupid how backwards non duality makes things seem. Like omniscient consciousness explains so much. That’s how streams of information were just downloaded into my consciousness. 

To me personally, non duality is highly low conscious teaching. Like exceptionally low lol. The actual funniest thing about it is it started like this: 

“the universe exist in cycles” 

LEGIT. This is what birthed non duality. This assumption right here. 

To be honest I can write more, But if it’s too long people won’t read. 

 

[Conrad]

@Aakash ? There is only One and All is It. You are It. I have direct conscious awareness of God. There is only God. This world is God. Total non-duality. 

[Aakash]

@Conrad yes you are right! I finally agree with you now  before I was fighting to project what the higher ground is like. Now I’ve experienced it. I can sympathise with you . 

You are god, you are totally perfect,  I am sorry for what I’ve said to you in the past two weeks 

[Conrad]

5 minutes ago, Aakash said:

@Conrad yes you are right! I finally agree with you now  before I was fighting to project what the higher ground is like. Now I’ve experienced it. I can sympathise with you . 

You are god, you are totally perfect,  I am sorry for what I’ve said to you in the past two weeks 

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4 minutes ago, Aakash said:

@Conrad 

No problem. If there is something that can't touch me, it's the fact that I am God. Actually I lost a friend of mine yesterday because I told him that I and you are God. It didn't affect me, his words affected me not. I know the truth of his state of consciousness.

happy you finally found out the Truth. 

[Aakash]

Yeah but I’m not permanently In it, I fluctuate daily. Ahh I’m sad to hear that but maybe you should reconsider. I know it doesn’t affect you because it’s an illusion. But we can never have to many friends even if it’s just one  

but at the end of the day, if that’s how you feel about it then so be it 

[Conrad]

2 minutes ago, Aakash said:

Yeah but I’m not permanently In it, I fluctuate daily. Ahh I’m sad to hear that but maybe you should reconsider. I know it doesn’t affect you because it’s an illusion. But we can never have to many friends even if it’s just one  

but at the end of the day, if that’s how you feel about it then so be it 

I will tell you a truth. If you have one good friend and thinks that's enough, you are wise. If you think you have 5 good friends you are a fool. 

[Inliytened1]

In the end friends are still you.  You are alone as God.  You as God have created everything else so you could experience what it is like to not be alone.  And also to experience discovering your true nature over and over to infinity. 

But you love everything as One.  You love being alone.  

There is no where to go as you are yourself.  So might as well rediscover that and feel the wonder over and over to infinity.

Edited July 5, 2019 by Inliytened1

[Conrad]

1 minute ago, Inliytened1 said:

In the end friends are still you.  You are alone as God.  You as God have created everything else so you could experience what it is like to not be alone.  And also to experience discovering your true nature over and over to infinity. 

But you love everything as One.

There is no where to go as you are yourself.  So might as well rediscover that and feel the wonder over and over to infinity.

Indeed ?

[Conrad]

I am Alone as God but we must live in duality and love, that's God's will. We must live. Fully live, fully surrender. And when time comes for it, fully die. 

[Good-boy]

@Aakash seems like good boy would become a sage real soon with all these non stop insights.?

[tedens]

Amen

 

[Aakash]

@Good-boy good boy has already reached the minimum require to become a sage. He is conscious that he is god, just not to the highest degree possible. 

Therefore good boy can only teach what ever his current degree of enlightenment is ? to others and the process repeats itself not over and over again. 

[Dodo]

1 hour ago, Conrad said:

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No problem. If there is something that can't touch me, it's the fact that I am God. Actually I lost a friend of mine yesterday because I told him that I and you are God. It didn't affect me, his words affected me not. I know the truth of his state of consciousness.

happy you finally found out the Truth. 

lol if you lost a friend because of something you said, you haven't lost a friend. He was never a friend 

[Conrad]

3 minutes ago, Dodo said:

lol if you lost a friend because of something you said, you haven't lost a friend. He was never a friend 

True that. 

[Conrad]

1 hour ago, Dodo said:

lol if you lost a friend because of something you said, you haven't lost a friend. He was never a friend 

1 hour ago, Dodo said:

lol if you lost a friend because of something you said, you haven't lost a friend. He was never a friend 

I told my family too and they were shocked but couldn't do anything. But my cousin threatened me fully after hearing me proclaim that I am God.

But I have no concern. Truth must be proclaimed and I shall not hide what I am and pretend. Now they know. 

Edited July 5, 2019 by Conrad

[Dodo]

23 minutes ago, Conrad said:

I told my family too and they were shocked but couldn't do anything. But my cousin threatened me fully after hearing me proclaim that I am God.

But I have no concern. Truth must be proclaimed and I shall not hide what I am and pretend. Now they know. 

wow do you live in USA ?  Where I live people would just look at me and say "mmmkay" "you alright?"  

[Conrad]

11 minutes ago, Dodo said:

wow do you live in USA ?  Where I live people would just look at me and say "mmmkay" "you alright?"  

I live in Norway but I have a very religious muslim family. They will never become conscious that they are God no matter what I say. I would have to force 5meo into them for that to happen. 

[Dodo]

1 minute ago, Conrad said:

I live in Norway but I have a very religious muslim family. They will never become conscious that they are God no matter what I say. I would have to force 5meo into them for that to happen. 

Ask them: Is God everywhere? 
If so, how can God not be me? 

If god is not Me, he is not everywhere 

lol 

[Aakash]

@Dodo I tried that, it didn’t work 

the simple fact is this: 

if you don’t have a conscious state of god experience in your memory.  You can forget about persuading anybody 

some people are open, some will never lol 

Edited July 5, 2019 by Aakash

[Conrad]

Just now, Aakash said:

@Dodo I tried that, it didn’t work 

the simple fact is this: 

if you don’t have a conscious state of god. You can forget about persuading anybody 

This. And God is not everywhere according to my family. Let alone everything.