This Shit is the REAL DEAL

[BlessedLion]

A couple weeks ago i posted about struggling with self-actualization, i was in a moment of anger, frustration and fear, and felt hopeless. So i felt obliged to write about how that flipped on its head. A few days after that i went and took some shrooms, this was a tough trip and after i felt depressed and like nothing mattered (victim bullshit) so i had a major ego backlash, i watched SO much porn, drank every night, slept for 10-12 hours a day, stopped meditating and eating healthy, really just said "fuck it" and went all out. It was a good experience, i needed it. The past 2 years i have diligently been pushing myself to keep good habits, meditate , etc and this was my first real fuck it moment and i just let myself give in to all my old bad patterns i have been trying so hard to defeat. In this ego backlash, which lasted about 10 days i slowly starting waking up again, realized how miserable i was becoming, anxieties and shit were all coming back, and i felt this hopelessness. I never said to myself "i have to get back on track!" i did it because i genuinely wanted to, like Leos video "Awareness alone is curative". I came snapped out of it and hit it hard; fasting, semen retention/ no fap, 2 hours of meditation a day, pushing myself to actually just start conversations with random people bc it scared me (which went very well), no tv, no bullshit, no time wasting, working hard, visualizing, journaling, contemplation, gratitude, excersice, the whole fucking lot. 

I have been doing this about a week now and wow. Holy fucking shit. I can feel such a significant shift, it has brought me to tears multiple times. Finally after 2 years of busting my ass i am seeing the real fruits beginning to bud. I can say i feel so good, just in my body alone, i feel buzzing and warmth all throughout myself like vigorous, i feel calm, i realized today if my company fired me i would be totally fine as long as i have my back, i don't fear as much at all i realize all the fear comes from within and  will manifest only as thoughts and feelings which are things i can simply witness and allow and usually when i do that, they dissolve. My mind has no grip on me, and we are actually becoming friends, self-love is at a whole new level. I am beginning to really see life as an amazing gift to be enjoyed and how much of a shame and waste it is to live in fear or anxiety. your happiness and joy are all that matter, anything in the way of that can burn. I know these are only words and it is so hard to put what is happening into words, but if you are out there and struggling or need motivation, fucking keep at it, you got this, this is ALL that matters. Slowly, i am ripping apart my limitations i feel like nothing is out of reach, i am just so fucking happy! 

I want to give Leo my infinite gratitude, @Leo Gura if you are reading this I fucking love you man you are truly an amazing soul and what you are doing is changing the world. you have certainly changed my world, without your motivation and knowledge this would've been impossible, it is so not encouraged or even talked about in our society. Love you man , for real <3 Thanks for waking me the fuck up, i could've never woken up and died an old, unhappy man.

 

[Leo Gura]

@BlessedLion My pleasure

[Aakash]

@BlessedLion ahah great to read, congrats! 

[Jonac]

Just behind egobacklashes there's, the new you. Good for you man. 

[Beard]

Thanks for the motivation m8, keep the momentum rolling ???

[Dan502]

Nice post, and well done!

[pluto]

It really all comes down to subconscious programming.

If you suddenly decide to live in a way that's completely alien to your average day to day life for a little while, you will notice a huge shift quite rapidly. You end up completely altering the program into a whole new paradigm and overwriting the old subconscious programming because it is no longer being given by the same old patterns.

This is why traveling is very effective for depressed people. It forces the subconscious with new patterns/programs from all the difference experiences that are occurring. Its no longer the same loop because you cannot really heal in the same place you got sick.

 

 

 

 

Edited July 5, 2019 by pluto