My second 5g dry mushrooms trip

[BornToBe]

Hello soulmates! How are you doing?!
It's been more than a half year since my first mushroom trip and I decided to do it again. Though this time I woke up  early in the morning and drove far from my city into the forest. It was really sunny morning . I had some fruits ,water ,a  pen ,  a notebook ,a little blanket to sit down on and of course some mushrooms in my backpack:) I walked far into the forest and ran upon a bench . I sat down and ate 5g dry mushrooms with some tangerines . After I've done it  my first thought was "Ohh no. Why have I done it again? I don't want that. " (even thought my first experience with mushrooms was amazing) I got a little nervous . " Well It's too late to panic . Just surrender to the experience. " I told myself and walked further into the forest to find a good spot to lay down. After 20 minutes of walking in the forest I started feeling a little dizzy. It was a hint to choose a spot ASAP . I put my blanket under a tree ,laid down ,closed my eyes. 

Not a good start

 For some reason a beginning of the experience was terrifying .  I closed my eyes and there was a feeling of somebody being present.I would describe this as white figures moving around and kind of observing me. At that moment I knew that they clearly see who I really was . They could see the core of my being . The core of my thoughts. It was really unpleasant feeling . I was trying to let go of that feeling but they could see that I was only TRYING  mentally and not really letting go( idk how to describe that). And you know what ? They laughed at me letting me know that I couldn't keep lying anymore . And they I said "fuck you" and they disappeared which was really weird. 

I think it was a hell.

 Then I opened my eyes and saw trees getting darker and darker even though it was a sunny day.Green leaves became dark green almost black. Everything around was becoming darker and darker. I closed my eyes again and saw complete darkness with weird white lines moving around.It was terrifying . Somehow I could understand that I saw my ego and thoughts that were creating that ego. If that makes sense. My whole being become that tiny disgusting thought. I was that thought. I was showed how terrible my ego was and all thoughts I was thinking. I couldn't keep my eyes closed seeing that shit. I tried to open my eyes which was a bad idea because everything around was dark and unpleasant . I thought to myself "Oh my God there is like 3 hours of the trip left. I said to myself that I don't want try mushrooms anymore closing  my eyes and surrendering to the experience . Then it got more intense I was falling down which felt like a hell. I saw fires , flames . I was sacred and started praying to God explaining that  I tried mushrooms just because I wanted to  see him and feel him to heal myself and keep spreading love.

Turning into a good trip.

 I don't think I can describe what happens next . It's really hard to put it into words . My bad trip (which was really not that long. I would say 10-15 minutes) was turning into a good trip. I traveled around beautiful places . I don't know what it was. Everything was changing . I was crying and laughing at the same time . It was the most amazing feeling I have ever experienced. All tensions and bad feeling was going out of my body through laugh and crying .There was a moment when I realized that mother nature comes to heal me. I felt connection to the Nature ,to people ,to everything. The funny thing happened when I opened my eyes and saw ants running around and doing their own thing. On mushrooms your vision and your hearing are strongly improved. I saw a little textures of ants playing with sunlight. I become an ant myself for a moment and could feel what it's like to be an ant. It was an  amazing feeling! Whatever I look at was sooo beautiful .Every little detail was like Universe .I kept crying out of amazement. Then I closed my eyes again and went to different places again . One of those places was heaven (at least it felt like that). I saw souls  there . Someone was singing . One girl(soul) was sitting on a tree branch playing with a fife. And the I saw a little and huge (at the same time) shiny white light . It was moving around me . At that moment I knew for sure that was God. I felt so amazing. The light was showing me around the heaven .  I might have been just a game of my mind but I felt Jesus Christ. More than that he was falling down and crying. And I was him and felt that pain. Then I saw and felt many different experiences and events from the Bible. At that moment I was like "Wow! I can write my version of Bible right now" but I didn't haha. Well for some reason this trip was very religious. I can't recall all the feelings I felt and places I've been to, but mushrooms might have been a beginning of a religion. 
It happened to me on my first trip when I looked at my hands and was like "Wow. I'm God and I can create anything with these hands ." This time I felt the same. I started moving my hands around and painting different pictures in my mind. My imagination was on the top haha  I wish it was always like that. 
The cool thing I like about mushrooms is that you have the feeling that you are a student and somebody (God, Universe,Mother Nature) is teaching you lessons. 
After the trip I couldn't stop saying "OMG. I saw God. OMG" I kept saying that out loud over and over . " I'm still figuring out what happened on that trip. To many lessons I can't grasp yet. Thank you guys for reading my trip report and much love for you 

 

Edited June 28, 2019 by BornToBe

[Leo Gura]

Be careful not to get lost in forms and imagery.

All of that imagery is your own imagination.

God is YOU! Don't overlook that.

It takes more trips to realize it.

[BornToBe]

@Leo Gura That's what I thought when the trip was over.