Maslow Pschology Graph

[Huz]

Has anyone on the self-actualised journey gone from below Esteem straight to Self Transendance? Is it possible?

Edited April 29, 2016 by Huz88

[Sri McDonald Trump Maharaj]

I'm not that social, my self-esteem is "fine",  I barely have any social status, I don't belong anywhere, not in school, not in my family, I barely spend time with them, I talk to friends like once per week or even less, I have been sick for 14 months and I meditate over 4 hours per day.

It can be hard if you absolutely can't not not do it. I heard of enlightenment and I just thaught about it for about four fucking months without a second of Inquiry. I was in love with running and skiing, I had gotten rid of all my bad habits, smoking, video games, drinking and all that shit. So when I got sick it was like doing this or getting compleatly unconscious. Anyone can do this, just wean yourself off everything gradually or something like that. <3

Edited April 29, 2016 by Sri McDonald Trump Maharaj

[Huz]

Thats cool dude, thanks, it put my search into perspective. How do you sustain yourself financially? 

With me I have always had this believe that I have got a point to prove to my family and friends. I think that came with an up bringing in an indian family. I discovered enlightenment and been practising it but my ego keeps going haywire and pulling back to pleasing sometimes. There was a case when I just had an exam and my thoughts just suddenly went crazy to I had to stop for 10mins and let it tick. I think that was my ego trying to prove that it is important because it was messing up the exam. My self-esteem has lowered quite drastically as well. I keep saying its the enlightenment work but I don't know, I am quite confused now. But I feel it is so going to carry on with it

[Sri McDonald Trump Maharaj]

I still live with my parents, I'm 19  but I barely talk with them. I'm still in society and school, you will probably feel like you become this meditating chimp after oing thsi for a while. They way I will sustain myself is work for 9 weeks this summer, after that I'm going to hit a Zen monestary for 10 months with the money I will get this summer.

Enlightenent fucked up my already fucked up school aswell. Leaving school to enlightenm myself for 10 months and then I will get back and finnish my last year. And my self-esteem also feels kinda poor now. You are not alone in this!