Meditation Questions

[mikeyy]

I just started meditating a few months ago and after watching Leos video on the no bullshit guide to meditation i expected to go through a variety of emotions while meditating. This has not occurred and i feel pretty relaxed the whole time Is this a good sign or am i suppressing something?

Also when i meditate i have trouble being the atmosphere and letting the thoughts pass through. I become unconscious during a though but then i realize it and go back to focusing on my breath. is this building my mindfulness muscle?

[Khin]

@mikeyy that's normal

[Nathalie]

@mikeyy

I would like to answer you with the experience I've made in the morning:

 

I was really grateful that I already found 30 minutes for a meditation so early, so I decided to sit down, to relaxe, just be silent and to acknoledge the calm arround me.. Then, after a few minutes the bell rang, so I stand up and opened the door.. F??!.. it was the chimney swipper, well.. I let him in and leave him alone for his work on the second floor. I decided to proceed with the meditation ( I still had 20 minutes or so). Now it wasn't calm anymore, so I focused on the noice in the chimney and somehow it became a cleaning of myself.. It was as if his brush went through me and made space in my chest and my belly.. For what? I thought.. and simultaneously came: it doesn't matter, Next question that came up: I wunder what kind of mess will emerge followed by the same answer: it doesn't matter.. A little later it was hammering in the chimney (in me?) Does he make place for something?.. It doesn't matter..

How ever, a little later, I finished it and I felt surprisingly calm and joyful, and the following hours, till now, energized and loving..

 

So I don't want to interpret all this here, but I let me ask you:

Did I meditate wrong?

Should I have done something else?

Was it useless?

Or isn't it exactly that, what makes meditations so enjoyable?

 

In my opinion, you can't make anything wrong, you just have to look at what comes up, sometimes it's magic, sometimes not, sometimes you get an answer for a question, even if you never asked before and sometimes it makes space for new ways..

Even if you just become aware, at the beginning, by observing your thoughts, that they have no sense, you win a lot because it allows you to disidentify with them...

Just don't let your mind make a prison with rigid parameters, imposing what should or shouldn't happen, but surrounder

 

Maybe the key is to listen and appreciate even "little" insights in order to encourage your innerself to speak with you oftener and louder..

[Infinite]

@mikeyy How long are you meditating? 

[Azrael]

@mikeyy Everything perfectly fine, just go on.