Actuality is so frightening

[Pouya]

When I observe things so directly and actually it makes me scared. It's seems so real that it's not real anymore.

Yesterday I was brushing my teeth and thinking about stuff, but suddenly some thought triggered becoming actual in me and when I looked absolutely direct to my own eyes in the mirror, I actually lost what is this thing. Like this face wasn't me anymore. It was what it was. I stayed like that for few minutes and I was shocked and scared.

Actuality is god damn scary.

[Anton_Pierre]

@Pouya It's frightening but you have to overcome it by denying the possibility of plan B, giving up.

[Nahm]

@Pouya Try to describe the sensation / emotion, “scary”...without resistant thoughts, without judgement, without conditions on the Love that you are, without ignore-ance of the Truth that you are. Be the pupil which is looking, not those which are seen. 

[Pouya]

@Anton_Pierre I've seen that 99% of my thoughts and feelings are pulling my attention away from it. The 1% triggers me to become actual. I easily run away from it with imagination and more thoughts.

@Nahm It is like I've been blind but now I can actually see. it's like it's the first time I can see or the first time I can hear or touch. Feels very real and very dreamy at the same time.

Edited June 3, 2019 by Pouya

[Nahm]

@Pouya Real indeed. ♥️??

[Inliytened1]

@Pouya its beautiful and terrifying.  Its all of Infinity.  And its you.  Just wait...:)

 

 

 

 

[cetus]

@Pouya  I must not be awake for everything seems as if in a dream.

Or maybe I'm awake for the first time and all that was before was just a dream.

[Anton_Pierre]

15 minutes ago, Pouya said:

@Anton_Pierre I've seen that 99% of my thoughts and feelings are pulling my attention away from it. The 1% triggers me to become actual. I easily run away from it with imagination and more thoughts.

Parasitic thoughts can't win against deep breathwork and self-inquiry.