Ego traps and jealousy

[hikmatshiraliyev]

Hi, i am pretty much newbie at self-improvement work. 

I was a procrastinator for 3-4 years, mental masturbation was the biggest enemy of me. At the same time, i found lots of good stuff on internet, online courses, websites, books and so on. My main problem was acting. 

Nowadays, i have started to act. But, i have a problem about sharing. I have lots of great resources to use, and they are enough to me for next 5 years. When i want to share it, there is a feeling that doesn't let me share. I compare myself to others a lot, and jealousy problems. Every time, when i feel that i share. But the feeling doesn't change. Should i start working on my emotions or even after emotional mastery there will be obvious ego traps like this? Maybe i feel like a victim, i feel like if anybody use this resources he/she will be more successful than me. Maybe the problem is here. 

What is your advice for me?

[iTommy]

I'd suggest that you share stuff even when the feeling of jealousy arises, the more you do it, the easier it usually gets and you might feel a bit proud of yourself for sharing even when you know that you might feel jealous/envious. "Comparison is the thief of joy", working on your emotions and the thought bundles lurking behind them, is a good idea. Practicing gratitude, love and compassion (there are meditations for that too) can turn things around for you. In a way, you're then practicing to be more self-less, by loving and accepting what is including your feelings that you perceive as "negative". It's all part of the journey of personal & spiritual growth. Contemplating those feelings and thoughts, writing down limiting beliefs and digging deeper into that would be beneficial too. You could ask yourself questions like... How would I feel, if I let comparision and jealousy be/go? - Would it maybe even accelerate my personal & spiritual growth? What would I lose & gain if I let go of it? What would happen if I accepted those things as they are? What exactly is this jealousy and comparison made of? - What is it in its nature?

It's good that you've started acting, keep at it

[Knock]

First of all, well done on starting to take action, this is often the hardest step and biggest roadblock!

I think a good point to start is to clearly identify the problem. 

54 minutes ago, hikmatshiraliyev said:

When i want to share it, there is a feeling that doesn't let me share. I compare myself to others a lot, and jealousy problems.

 

55 minutes ago, hikmatshiraliyev said:

Maybe i feel like a victim, i feel like if anybody use this resources he/she will be more successful than me.

Please correct me if I am wrong, but these seem to point towards you undervaluing your opinion, and overvaluing others. 

55 minutes ago, hikmatshiraliyev said:

What is your advice for me?

My advice would be to look into self-esteem. There is a very good book by Nathaniel Brandon called "the 6 pillars of self esteem". It has some practical exercises in there too that can help prime yourself on taking action in real life.
Give that a shot, see if it resonates with you.