Real Growth When it comes to nutrition

[Rigel]

Hello everyone I just want to share something that happened to me that maybe some of you can benefit from.

So yesterday I was in an ego backlash after having a mushroom trip the day before and telling the truth to my parents about everything I do and my consumption of psychedelic compounds.(Another story)

It was not that big of a backlash. I feel a lot more present today and I think part of what helped me get out of that is the very fact that I did not try to resist any of the "unconscious" behaviour. I ate terrible food all day and I did not guilt myself for it. What happened instead of me just going down that spiral is that I became very conscious of the effect that it had on my body. I felt terrible to be honest and I still do to a certain extend today while I am writing this.

By this point I have absolutely no interest in eating junk food anymore. I did yesterday and I didn't like it. The little rush of pleasure from the taste I can get is just not worth it. I am way more at ease and happy when eating my regular whole food vegan diet.

I remembre the video where leo talks about real vs fake growth and where he explains the difference and I understand now. I could just build an environnement for myself where I would have very limited contact to those kind of foods. For exemple, by not going out and hangout with my friends anymore(Because let's be honest restaurant food is generally garbage). By doing that I would probably eat a quite healty diet but it wouldn't solve anything internaly. I feel like I could go out right now, surrounded by junk food and alcool and not even want any of that. Just the joy of being with friends would be more than enough.

For a long time I did the whole diet thing out of a sens of "Should" because it's somehow the "right" thing to do. That's terrible way to go about it ahah. Now I just want to be healthy and conscious. That's want I want not what I think I should do to become "better" or to aggrandize myself.

[Nahm]

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