Towards Being

[Natura Sonoris]

Hello folks

I wanted to open this topic because these months were very strange for me. Over the last 2 years i have been watching Leo's channel because his videos helped me realize how much bullshit is inside my mind. The first most influential videos were 'How to stop being a victim'', ''Taking Responsibility'' and ''How Not to Care What Other Think of You'' ( titles might not be accurate because i did not watch those for some time). I started to question my whole life since my childhood and i saw how much garbage is inside my mind. I started practicing mindfulness during the day and it gave me powerful insights on the how the mind works. 

After doing this for 2 years, my life improved a lot but after newer videos over the last few months, i saw there is whole decade of really deep work that requires a lot of sacrifice on my side. Now, i am not taking this as just words that Leo said, i actually realized how our egos are root cause of our our problems. It is totally different thing when you take it as belief  and when you actually experience how your mind behaves.

I came to realization that mind is nothing more than just a perception like any other, it is more like a visual-audio sensation that tends to stick with aspect of reality and stick with it for certain period of time (but time is ilusion) . One of those ''sticking'' is the mind's tendency to stick to the sensation of the body and when you focus your atention to that sensation, your mind will create really vivid mental image of shape of your body (at least in my experience). I came to these realizations when i started to meditate each day for 1 hour (also using audio program called holosync that helped me build habit of doing meditation each day ). After i finish the meditation, my mind tends to calm down a bit.

Now my question is :

I saw the benefits of doing the work. I realized the benefits of doing meditation but as always, your ego strikes back and you get sucked in it again. So i would like to commit my time doing more because at the moment, i am young and i have lots of free time (still i know time is ilusion) I already started to question all my beliefs and i can see that it is never ending game... your mind can come up with any bullshit it wants, it has infinitive resources.I am aware that my mind when is writing this post is doing nothing more than another mental mastrubation and it is not accepting reality as it is. But still ... is the key really to meditate as much as you can and really do nothing ? 

 

 

Edited April 24, 2016 by Natura Sonoris
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[MarkusR]

In my eyes, you are bound to have to do many things each day to keep yourself alive and "progressing". The best way to bring in your meditation work into each day is to instead of limiting yourself to meditating only during sections of time a day, meditate throughout all of your activities. Whether it be doing some chores, talking with friends, schoolwork, actual work, or basically any time you are conscious focus on silencing your mind, becoming the all encompassing awareness that you are, and just float.

Awesome that you are making so much progress, hope this helps your journey.

[Natura Sonoris]

@MarkusR

The thing is my mind is really neurotic in a way. Most of the time i am alone (i enjoy being alone) doing my regular stuff but that also means that i am also a lot in my head. So during these activities it is really hard to mindful and i really dont ''know'' how to meditate during the day. During the day i can feel tension in my mind and if i dont meditate i get dragged in all bullshit that my mind is dealing with. I have a lot of subconscious garbage from childhood that needs cleaning. I think everyone does because i see it everywhere around me but i am aware that it is my own projection and i know i see other people as one part of me ).

The tension melts away after i meditate for 1 hour and i can feel the emptiness and stillness. But now it is really hard for me to decide what to do.This is subconscious garbage is really  screwing with me during the day and meditation is best decision i have done to clean it up. I am dealing with more and more garbage each day but still i know there is a lot of hidden stuff that i am blind to. I dont know if you get me what i mean

[MarkusR]

@Natura Sonoris Haha yea I understand. It is really really difficult to transform your psyche when your brain gets used to blabbering on and thinking so much.

I think that, since you are already doing such a long meditation, maybe instead of 1 hour you start doing 30 minutes, and then try to drag on that stillness and peaceful feeling as far as you can into the rest of your day. When you are done and get up and start moving, use your meditation techniques like observing your movements and thoughts to keep you in that state for as long as you would like.

The more you do this the easier it gets. When I was not so focused and stressed about school I did this a lot and it got to a point where I could turn on meditative   mode on command :). Which is awesome and super useful when you get caught up in your head about stuff.

Try it out and tell me how it goes, I might be making a post about this method once I've integrated it fully into my life.

[Free Spirit]

@Natura Sonoris  Hi.. I think myself think the key to it all, the aim being to rid your mind of 'chatter',  is over the long term, just to be aware each day of the chatter, and concentrate on what's at hand in the present moment.  I find myself doing something, with my mind racing.  Once I realize what's happening in my head, I make a conscious effort to get my mind back into the present. TEven if you are busy, your mind is at peace as long as its concentrating on one thing, i.e. the thing you are doing, or the person you are talking with.  Im waffling.. sorry...  !!  My mind is on the job lol.  

[Natura Sonoris]

@MarkusR

Now when you mention it, i should be meditating earlier during the day  in order to remove that fog inside my head so i remain as much focused as possible. I did it few times and whole day after doing meditation earlier was really good but i forgot to build a habit.

As for 30 mins, i am using Holosync audio program which forces you to meditate for whole hour. Its long term purpose is clean subconscious mind of garbage (like ordinary meditation). The whole program is really demanding and it will take you at least 5 years to complete all levels. Leo mentioned that it works and it rewires the brain as it is mentioned but he stopped using it after he found out about some other types of meditation.  

So i decided to try it mainly because it forced me to build a habit of doing meditation each day (if you dont do it, it wont work). Other reason is that i wanted to improve my mindfulness skill that helped me a lot with my self-esteem issues. Observing my mind when i get angry or when i seek validation for something,   (nothing dramatic but still when you realize it, you want it out of your life) really helped me a lot.

Then i thought next step would be to meditate and to observe my mind and to clearly see what is inside it without need to react on it. But i noticed that my mind needs at least good 20,30 mins in order to get ''weaker'' so i can i observe it as it is (sometimes my mind is so hard to calm down in order to do it, so my meditation sessions are kinda weak).So for me 1 hour is really good, but more than that for now is overkill. 

But now i kinda feel i need to cut off too much shit out of my life in order to get proper peace of mind that i want. First of all, when i wake up, i have some morning ritual and i have to admit, sometimes i slack of and waste time on stupid stuff. When i waste time, my mind starts to fill with shit and tension buiilds up. My mind is like on crack cocaine. It is hyper analytical and when that happens, there is a lot of space for unwanted garbage. Also i am doing kinda analytical work which requires me to work on computer so thats also a big issue. So much room for mind to play with unwanted stuff. 

I will check out the video you posted and will try to do the exercise. 

 

[MarkusR]

@Natura Sonoris Awesome man, I should check out that program sounds interesting. Need to work on my discipline as well

[Henri]

@Natura Sonoris  This topic comes all the time in different forms back on this site. It`s a common problem to, especially, western people to build a good meditation practice, to stop the over-thinking and to be able to enjoy the fruits of your practice.

In most cases I suggest to learn some pranayamas. This you`ll do before your meditation practice and is a tool to `dive` deeper and comfortably in your meditation without the `fight` with the scattering mind.

However you mentioned that you have a lot of subconscious garbage from your past, so I would recommend you to do some cleansing stuff. There is a profound method called the Sudarshan Kriya given by The Art of Living. This NGO is in your country also. You can check out the website. Here you`ll learn some integral stuff meaning the body, the mind, the energy-body and the soul. Meditation will be joyful afterwards.