Everything is so FUCKING BORING

[ZZZZ]

6 hours ago, Ampresus said:

@ZZZZ I was speaking in a general sense. If you had read my original post, you would know that I get bored of the activities themselves. The time between them is not my issue. Again, I was talking in a general sense.

 

@ZZZZ I know about how porn is supposedly bad. I know about ''my obsession'' with it. I have been trying to quit, but as I mentioned I might try this Tantra masturbation as a replacement. Oh, didn't I mention I am very young? Still am new to my hormones.

My boredom IS in the journal of ''finding hobbies, building relationships, being social, working towards something meaningful''. My bad if I didn't mention that I tried all of that. It just became really boring. I have tried a lot of things to change my situation, Why do you think I started to post about it? Am desperate.

 

I did read your original post. Why did you say (and I originally quoted):
 

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It is time that is left after these activities that we are talking about here.

Those are two very different things, but I digress. 

I am just going to give you some final encouragement and tell you that time should allow you to work most of this out if you are still young. I can only imagine how I would feel if I was 12-14 trying to regularly visit this site and simply grow up and go through puberty at the same time. Teenagers are not rational robots. Life is meant to be explored and learned to some extent before filling your head with other theory and ideas.

I also don't really think some sort of special masturbation is going to solve all of your hormonal/sex related problems, but I could be wrong. Maybe start by exploring your relationships with women (with your Mom, sister, teachers, friends, etc.). If you just look as women as potential sexual objects, this could lead to further problems for you down the road. Although these sound like two different issues... Your sense of purpose will develop over time.

[Ampresus]

3 hours ago, Scholar said:

Do some reading on this site, best if you read the book:

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/

You won't be able to feel excited for anything if your brain is not operating properly. Depending on how much porn you are consuming, you brain might look very similar to that of a heroine addict.

This should be your first priority, because if you can't let go of that you simply won't have motivation or interest to do anything. You are far from the only one who has this problem.

@Scholar I already have read the book. I did almost everything the man said, but was and still am addicted to porn. I haven't tried journaling though. 

[Ampresus]

3 hours ago, ajasatya said:

bored? i know you're very young, but this is something that i did at your age (and even younger): think about your life after your parents are dead.

who is going to feed you? where are you going to live? this way of thinking can shake you out of your current complacent life. engage in your quest for survival already... stop fooling yourself.

@ajasatya Oh you think I haven't? When you are bored, your mind wanders off pretty fast. I already have 3 potential future plans. I have thought about my future a lot now and am getting more and more excited if I succeed. I don't suppose I need to tell you about all my three plans. 

[Shin]

What about being cool with being bored and lazy ?

[zeroISinfinity]

3 hours ago, Shin said:

I think Zerol has the teacher syndrom.

That's when you had a mystical experience and now want to teach anyone about it,
And also think you're the only one to really know what the Truth is.

Yeah that is true.?Nah no worry Will not become next enlightened master.? I apologize for misbeahaving. ?

If someone needs any help they can PM me,will gladly respond. 

I will continue my work for sure but Will not talk about it on forum.This shit is mysticism. 

 

[ajasatya]

29 minutes ago, Ampresus said:

@ajasatya Oh you think I haven't? When you are bored, your mind wanders off pretty fast. I already have 3 potential future plans. I have thought about my future a lot now and am getting more and more excited if I succeed. I don't suppose I need to tell you about all my three plans. 

then what are you waiting for exactly? survival can be hard enough even if you don't procrastinate.

[Shin]

5 minutes ago, zeroISinfinity said:

Yeah that is true.?Nah no worry Will not become next enlightened master.? I apologize for misbeahaving. ?

If someone needs any help they can PM me,will gladly respond. 

I will continue my work for sure but Will not talk about it on forum.This shit is mysticism. 

 

You can talk about it,

Just don't teach people who don't need or didn't asked to be teached ?

[zeroISinfinity]

Just now, Shin said:

You can talk about it,

Just don't teach people who don't need or didn't asked to be teached ?

Yeah sure but do not want to. But I want to talk about something different for a change. 

Wanna go out for dinner with me? I am not needy I am Just bored. ?

That is the theme I am really interested for. ❤️

[Shin]

2 minutes ago, zeroISinfinity said:

Yeah sure but do not want to. But I want to talk about something different for a change. 

Wanna go out for dinner with me? I am not needy I am Just bored. ?

That is the theme I am really interested for. ❤️

No ?

[zeroISinfinity]

24 minutes ago, Shin said:

No ?

So you found your 10/10 asian chick ?

Ok ?

[abrakamowse]

41 minutes ago, zeroISinfinity said:

So you found your 10/10 asian chick ?

Ok ?

I don't think so, he is only playing "hard to get"

[zeroISinfinity]

16 minutes ago, abrakamowse said:

I don't think so, he is only playing "hard to get"

Yes ?

[abrakamowse]

14 minutes ago, zeroISinfinity said:

Yes ?

???

[Shin]

4 minutes ago, abrakamowse said:

???

Actually I am hard to get,

I only opened my heart to 3 people in my entire life.

Not gonna happen bro

 

But that's enough off-topic, let the op have this thread

Edited May 15, 2019 by Shin

[Ampresus]

43 minutes ago, Shin said:

But that's enough off-topic, let the op have this thread

@Shin Yes please. You know Leo created this thing called ''Private Messages'' on his forum. Maybe bring this conversation over to there.

[Ampresus]

2 hours ago, ajasatya said:

then what are you waiting for exactly? survival can be hard enough even if you don't procrastinate.

@ajasatya My age doesn't allow me to be in control of my life and its future atm. I am forced to go to school. I can't live on my own and I still haven't contacted the Canadian embassy. Maybe I should do that this week...

I am trying to cook with my mom from time to time. Trying to learn my favourite meals. 

[ajasatya]

4 minutes ago, Ampresus said:

I am forced to go to school. I can't live on my own and I still haven't contacted the Canadian embassy

you don't have to leave the place you live with your parents in order to start working on your future for real. the day has 24 hours. you sleep 8 and spend 8 hours dedicating yourself to school. that makes room for 8 hours everyday for you to work hard on your plans. what do you do with your spare time besides watching porn?

[Bill W]

6 minutes ago, Ampresus said:

@Shin Yes please. You know Leo created this thing called ''Private Messages'' on his forum. Maybe bring this conversation over to there.

There is a shit load of this going on in this forum. I don't know if it's always like this or not. I am new here. It seems there are a few members who know each other that do this on a few threads. An intelligent place for people to come and self improve and its gets crapped on in the name of "humour".

[cetus]

@Ampresus Here's something to contemplate about living a proper life..................

 

[Ampresus]

19 hours ago, ajasatya said:

you don't have to leave the place you live with your parents in order to start working on your future for real. the day has 24 hours. you sleep 8 and spend 8 hours dedicating yourself to school. that makes room for 8 hours everyday for you to work hard on your plans. what do you do with your spare time besides watching porn?

@ajasatya First: make the remaining 8 hours about 3-4 hours. I don't know in what fantasy world you live in, but school is always a burden. There are many upcoming tests and a ton of homework that is asking for my attention. 

Now comes to part where I have no good response. I have been sitting around doing nothing for the last several days. I know I can watch movies and series, but I don't want to be addicted to any. So I sit around, enjoy being hungry and thirsty, think about all kinds of stuff and wait for my online friend to come online. Recently some classmates have been asking me to play together (rather unusual) and so I play with them from time to time.

I used to meditate, do self-inquiry, do concentration practice and read books. Now I am only reading books. All the other things brought a lot of stress with them. Sitting around doing nothing is more fun than sitting in 1 posture neurotically trying to 'look' at your thoughts while your legs start hurting. At least that is my point of view.