the quote "you should try to enjoy it as much as possible"

[Aakash]

i really believed in this quote before i found out about enlightenment 

now it just feels like what ever i do, i know is my responsibility to take under my wing and that includes choosing a pathway and a particular delusion 

my understanding is i can't truly enjoy life until after enlightenment 

i don't know how to enjoy the journey 

its like i've tried to become a better person by thinking my way through my own limited beliefs and viewpoints 

but i've started to notice in the past few weeks that my past beliefs are starting to become strong again 

i grew up in a hood environment with people who i thought had value systems i would accept but not conduct myself through its shallowness 

this resistor became the ability to grow and outgrow perspectives 

but its starting to feel that maybe this becoming a better person, choosing this longer pathway of improvement and upgrading your complexity to think about situations from multiple vantage points is hindering my ability to gain material wealth because of the time it takes to adjust viewpoints 

but this is where my problem lies because i can no longer adopt my old paradigm because it would have been through my responsibility to choose correctly, and this wouldn't be it, but at the same time-  neither would choosing enlightenment now because its fruitless in material wealth 

so it becomes a balancing act, without being able to hold onto either of the viewpoints of enlightenment or my old paradigm 

but i don't know really how to enjoy that journey, without core foundations to attach and guard indefinately. 

i've most certainly reached the point where i want to kill off my desires and see absolutely nothing in everything 

therefore the easy option is to go back to my old paradigm 

the harder option is to persue enlightenment at all cost

but after 2 years i've stopped enjoying finding out about the truth of reality, because i can't apply it at all when using thinking 

but this complex thinking, it is still something i do to survive,

really a part of me just wants to stop thinking for like 2 weeks 

but really i don't enjoy it anymore and therefore don't have motivation to get out of this limbo 

 

[zeroISinfinity]

59 minutes ago, Aakash said:

i really believed in this quote before i found out about enlightenment 

now it just feels like what ever i do, i know is my responsibility to take under my wing and that includes choosing a pathway and a particular delusion 

*There are no delusions in life, heaven is perfectly made for you by you of you for you to see it. All is Truth all is Love

my understanding is i can't truly enjoy life until after enlightenment 

*Only after enlightenment you can enjoy it so ? out

i don't know how to enjoy the journey 

its like i've tried to become a better person by thinking my way through my own limited beliefs and viewpoints 

*Follow and listen to your ❤️ for a change it has all answers. 

but i've started to notice in the past few weeks that my past beliefs are starting to become strong again 

*Yup you started to listen mind more again and forgot ❤️

i grew up in a hood environment with people who i thought had value systems i would accept but not conduct myself through its shallowness 

*Your hood is perfect and it is showing you the true way Within. 

this resistor became the ability to grow and outgrow perspectives 

but its starting to feel that maybe this becoming a better person, choosing this longer pathway of improvement and upgrading your complexity to think about situations from multiple vantage points is hindering my ability to gain material wealth because of the time it takes to adjust viewpoints 

but this is where my problem lies because i can no longer adopt my old paradigm because it would have been through my responsibility to choose correctly, and this wouldn't be it, but at the same time-  neither would choosing enlightenment now because its fruitless in material wealth

*Material wealth - egoic delusion it Will not make you happy

so it becomes a balancing act, without being able to hold onto either of the viewpoints of enlightenment or my old paradigm 

but i don't know really how to enjoy that journey, without core foundations to attach and guard indefinately. 

i've most certainly reached the point where i want to kill off my desires and see absolutely nothing in everything 

therefore the easy option is to go back to my old paradigm 

the harder option is to persue enlightenment at all cost

but after 2 years i've stopped enjoying finding out about the truth of reality, because i can't apply it at all when using thinking 

but this complex thinking, it is still something i do to survive,

really a part of me just wants to stop thinking for like 2 weeks 

but really i don't enjoy it anymore and therefore don't have motivation to get out of this limbo 

*You Will make it no worries ❤️