Serious Help

[Cdub248]

Events keep happening that scare me to death. for example Went to the dairy farm today, got ice cream a simple event. but how it played out was exactly as if i remembered it before, same for this post, same for the pistons vs cavs game right now 

How/why is this happening? it's freaking me out

Whats worse is I think I lost my son/ I died..

I even posted this in the self actulation forms..

I Waited to see if it would get any better

it hasn't it's gotten worse I wake up in panic attacks nightly

Can't get it off my mind.. every second I tell myself I died

I've cried these past 4-6 months I've been going through this for 4-6 months

The pain fear love and relation are ripping me apart I go through this every second of every day fun.

Please someone help

[Cdub248]

Sorry for double post.. I relazie I have no free will and it's terrifying everything i'm doing/seeing has already been done and seen in EXACTLy the same fashion i've tried meditating seeking medical help and giving up what are some others methods ... i'm so lost 

Is this all just my consciousness? 

Is my son just a thought? my family myself my mom?

All so sensitive i'm hurting so bad I can't let go i've even cried multiple times around them and with them 

they are so supportive but don't know how to help..

[Philip]

 

[charlie2dogs]

I agree with philip you need help and from outside this forum, you need professional help, and the sooner the better