Random journal, don't read !

[Shin]

[Shin]

 

Worst time of the year for me.

Two months of feeling extremely weak, both physically and psychologically

Because some plants jerks all over in the air

FUCK YOU !

 

https://www.pollens.fr/en/network/allergy

 

 

Edited May 30, 2019 by Shin

[Natasha]

@Shin Back in Europe I used to be allergic to some pollen. My hand palms would turn patchy with red and white. It stopped when I moved to Florida. What's the name of the plant that's bothering you? Feel better soon. 

[Shin]

6 minutes ago, Natasha said:

@Shin Back in Europe I used to be allergic to some pollen. My hand palms would turn patchy with red and white. It stopped when I moved to Florida. What's the name of the plant that's bothering you? Feel better soon. 

https://community.aafa.org/blog/what-if-you-re-allergic-to-grass-10-steps-to-managing-grass-pollen-allergy

It's not soon, it last 45-60 days every year.

On the long term I will move in an area of the world where there is none I think.

I can't live like this all my life, it's just too annoying, especially when it's so hot outside, it stacks with it and makes me even more tired,
To the point where I'm so tired I can't think straight

Edited May 30, 2019 by Shin

[DrewNows]

Looked this up for you mate in case you find it of interest 

 

[Shin]

16 hours ago, DrewNows said:

Looked this up for you mate in case you find it of interest 

 

Thank you ?

 

 

[Shin]

@Inliytened1

Accountable for tomorrow ?

[Shin]

 

This is me every saturday from now on ???????

That's so sad and funny at the same time

???????

 

 

Edited June 1, 2019 by Shin

[Shin]

 

Cases of leading by exemple are starting to show themselves.

My dad, after seeing me not eating anything in the morning, and just once a day the saturday, wants to do it too.
Didn't try anything on him, just explaining why I'm doing it when he asked.

 

Edited June 1, 2019 by Shin

[Shin]

 

I didn't expect it to be so easy.
Meditating all day (till now), was a breeze.
Except the first hour, you just totally let go and stay peaceful as fuck.

I probably should do this every free day I have from now on
It's not like there is anything more important to do.
6 hours to do the rest of my habits and having some fun is way enough anyway.

If I find my balls I might even do self-inquiry for half of the day, but they are still missing for now
Maybe Kriya Yoga as replacement if I still insist to be a little girl, I still didn't try it

@Inliytened1

 

[Natasha]

6 hours ago, Shin said:

I might even do self-inquiry

Have you tried Leo's guided self inquiry? It actually helped me to wake up

 

[Shin]

2 minutes ago, Natasha said:

Have you tried Leo's guided self inquiry? It actually helped me to wake up

 

 

Yes I did, very effective, that's why I'm not doing it

[Shin]

 

Edited June 5, 2019 by Shin

[Shin]

 

«normal» order of french fries in Belgium

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[Shin]

It's time to

 

 

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[Shin]

[Shin]

 

This is why I don't care about psychedelics ?

 

[DrewNows]

That’s a good book.

Psychedelics not meant to work as a fixer drug like anti depressants or something but it has been known to open up new possibility/truths never considered or fully understood. And it’s also giving you access to a world never before seen and experienced. I didn’t have a good trip but the experience will never be forgotten, so I’m open to try again ? 

[Shin]

On 10/06/2019 at 4:32 PM, DrewNows said:

That’s a good book.

Psychedelics not meant to work as a fixer drug like anti depressants or something but it has been known to open up new possibility/truths never considered or fully understood. And it’s also giving you access to a world never before seen and experienced. I didn’t have a good trip but the experience will never be forgotten, so I’m open to try again ? 

I'm not saying I never will, or that it's a trap, or that they can't help, or that they are not useful.

For me it just feels like I'm not supposed to take them, at least not now.

It's not a moral issue, and It also doesn't feel I'm avoiding them by fear.

It just doesn't click in me for some reason ?

 

 

Didn't post this for a while, did everything almost everyday except 1 or 2 maybe.

NO LIE !!!

Let's say I was a bit distracted last week ?

 

 

 

[Shin]

 

Ever felt that everything is taking care of ?

That everything that happens in your life, whether you label it as good or bad, beatiful or ugly, painful or ecstatic supports you towards greater and greater union and love ?

When I look back, every events, no matter how insignificant led me where I am now.

I've been down so many times in my life, and everytime, one way or another help came in some form or another after.

Nowadays, it's almost instant.

I literally close my eyes, go through the pain and let it all go, and the week, sometimes even one day after I'm already being lifted up by life.

So much coincidences that I wouldn't believe it a year ago.

 

I was just never conscious of it before, but now that I can see the pattern, I'm ready to take everything in.

I really just don't care what will happen anymore, there is too much faith now.

Whatever happens is exactly what should happen for me to become whatever I will become, there is no doubt anymore.

 

I just wish you could all have the same faith

There really isn't anything to be afraid of.

It's all taken care of.

 

Just let it go and move on please

?????

Edited June 12, 2019 by Shin