Struggling with use of ego

[Erinelle]

I find that whenever I feel closer to God (if I even am) and then returning to social situations in general, I struggle with operating an ego that knows it's fragile. 

I know I'm not my mind and feel a greater distinction with most passing days. So when I find myself dealing with other people, I find myself seeing the other person and their ego and not knowing how to feel comfortable in interacting with them (bar a couple of close relationships) as I don't want to use an ego that's full of shit just like them. 

So on the path to actualization, with an ego in tow, is there a way of easing up the suffering by making and utilising an ego (albeit temporary) that can feel and act better whilst it dies it's death?

Or is the path and pursuit of ego dissolution meant to be a complete fucking shitshow? Is more and more pain and suffering meant to be? Or can it be cake and ice cream on the way to the real party? Because I've had dog shit on my shoe my whole life and want a cleaner experience.

Hip hip hooray.

[CreamCat]

Sounds like you are having fun.