subconscious actions

[Aakash]

been observing my thoughts, beliefs etc in bed and have entered the realm of my subconscious, 

the turns i make in bed , the positions i like to sleep in , the times i feel uncomfortable, the spins i make 

my realisation is that the subconscious actually controls 99-99.9% of things 

i've surrendered control and therefore i am able to observe , 

makes me wonder how much of my life i was actually in control of 

[Aakash]

btw the 1% that i tought i was in control of was not even true 

so the answer is 100% i was not in control of :') 

life! 

[Jkris]

@Aakash So how did you manage to quiet your thoughts aka no mind ?

[Aakash]

@Jkris i don't quiet my thoughts, i just let them appear and then dissappear without identifying with them and as this is happening there is more gap inbetween thoughts also i'm able to meditate/ self-inquiry for much longer periods of time 

[Jkris]

@Aakash so absolute no mind or thoughtless state is not a pre requisite to be pulled in to the void or no-thingness ?

[Aakash]

@Jkris it is in a way because you still have to find the self within the silence, it can't be found with the mind, 

its just a matter of how silent does your mind need to be in order for you to recognise you are the one who is aware 

i guess it depends on several factors including your type of method used 

but generally for self-inquiry just to get a brief glimpse you need a less quiet mind than doing full on meditate i think 

i'm not sure i did self -inquiry but its started to blend with meditation at a point, where i wasn't sure which one i was doing 

but a general rule of thumb is the more silence you remain in the greater probability you have of finding the true self (the fact you know you exist) 

[Jkris]

@Aakash Thank you.one last question has your sense of seperatedness or me feeling or identity completely vanished ? Is there any change in how you perceive ? Meaning how it feels like to perceive with out the me feeling ?

 

[Aakash]

My perspective has changed - yeah 

my "me feeling" has gotten stronger ,but its not a seperate self, its THE SELF 

my identity, to be honest i'm not sure about lol , i haven't really given any of this a thought , am currently just in the process of being  will decide tomorrow where am i, if i'm deluding myself etc ... 

[tecladocasio]

46 minutes ago, Aakash said:

my "me feeling" has gotten stronger ,but its not a seperate self, its THE SELF 

@Aakash Consider that perhaps this is not ''THE SELF'' , but just a feeling .

Edited April 9, 2019 by tecladocasio

[Aakash]

@tecladocasio i will   

[Joseph Maynor]

What is that which wonders how much of your life you're in control of?