My experience with meditation

[Kubia]

Hi guys, i just wanted to share my experience with meditation, and see if someone can relate to this.

The first time i heard of meditation was from an article 2 years ago. After reading a bit I said "Mhh, strange but seems interesting, let's give it a try". I was really stressed for various reason, so the the prospect of peace of mind was tempting.

In a lot of videos about meditation it's said that at first try is hard, and the result will accumulate over time gradually, of course this is true BUT...the first try for me was groundbreaking.

After only 15 minutes of meditation (a super-newbie version of vipassana), i opened my eyes and i noticed something very strange, the object that surrounded me seems more 3D, my head was so light, i felt almost a different person. It was like a new whole world opened in front of me.After that i went out of my house (i lived in a crowded city at the time), and it was like i watched everything for the first time in my life. I cried for no reason.

Normally i am an introvert guy, but it was like i wanted to talk to every person. Very strange. Then i went to the nearest library and bought the first book i found on meditation (it was one of Osho), and finished in like 2 days when i was at the park (normally i never do a thing like that).

Anyway...long story short, i continued with the practice more and more, and every session was more powerful, and the experiences more profound. Every object felt alive, every conversation felt meaningful, for the first time in a long time i was really grateful for being alive. In this golden period i made a ton of new friends, and girlfriends as well (not that i was trying!), even sex sensation was magnified, i felt like a porn god (lol). In synthesis everything was possible for me, and i was doing it effortlessy.

The most profound experience was after a session in my countryside. I opened my eyes and watching the tree moving in the wind, that felt alive, vibrant, with a personality. The trees was like God, that moment itself seemed God. That was my peak, i think after 1 month of meditation).

Anyway, this period ended, it lasted almost 2-3 months, and I never felt like this again. I don't know why but, even if i meditate harder than before I've never accessed the super conscious state that i obtained the first time. I was lucky? Newbie gains? I don't know, i know simply that the first times it was like zero effort and max result, now it was like the opposite.

Now, don't get me wrong, i continued to meditate anyway because my baseline level of well-being and consciousness was raised above my original state, but it needed much more consistency, and fade away more quickly. Plus i was watching Leo's videos, trying new techniques, reading a lot of book, but sometimes i think of that time when knowing zero about meditation i obtained that incredible peace of mind and consciousness expanding.

 

Anyway....today was different. I normally do vipassana, so i concentrate on my breathing and when i access a very deep state of concentration a point up my nostrils kinda vibrate (it's a strange sensation) and i concentrate on expanding the sensitivity on that point. But today i remembered the first time when i forced to breathe from my diaphragm. I know that is the norm, but i noticed that when i concentrate on the sensation on my nostrils i breathe more from the chest, so today i totally forced my diaphragm (and it was rusty, it almost hurt) and concentred on it. After 2 session of 20 minutes i felt the EXACT mind-blowing sensation and state of mind that i experienced the first time. And the meditation was far more effortless (after the first minutes of course).

So the theory is that i was doing it right the first times, then i overcomplicated it and lost it. Anyway i will continue this way and try to write the right things that work for me.

Do you guys think that i'm just "gifted" for this? Or is totally normal? I was just trying to relax and i found God itself, without even knowing it. 

ps: sorry for the grammar, i'm Italian. Cheers!

 

[Truth Addict]

@Kubia

Cool stuff man! I'm happy for you.

Here's a clue: God hides in the most unexpected of places.

Or you can say: you find what you want when you stop looking.

Or: insight shows up when you least expect it.

Edited April 3, 2019 by Truth Addict

[ajasatya]

11 hours ago, Kubia said:

I was just trying to relax and i found God itself

who
are
YOU?

[Kubia]

29 minutes ago, ajasatya said:

who
are
YOU?

Why do you ask? 

 

50 minutes ago, Truth Addict said:

@Kubia

Cool stuff man! I'm happy for you.

Here's a clue: God hides in the most unexpected of places.

Or you can say: you find what you want when you stop looking.

Or: insight shows up when you least expect it.

I know right! Is the kinda situation that happen me the most.