HIIIIIIII. I'm currently 19 and a student . Here i'll connect with my goals.  Slowly improve being proactive. Ok, first thing i'm gonna do is attempt to give myself a big goal to strive towards. What do I want ?? What type of life do I want to live? Part 1 I want a more diverse life, I've just been watching videos, playing games, and doing homework for like the past year. Something that really excites me is creating/designing things, I really enjoy seeing the clever things that other people or I can build.  That is what I kinda wanna do for a living; I want to be free. Not have to live by societies rules. I'm not too sure I want to work for other people unless that job gives us a lot of freedom. In order to start moving towards that direction, I need to remove my addiction for gaming, watching videos,etc. This road will be very difficult; however will give me a much more free life in the future. I'm going to list out my individual addictions and their causes Gaming Provides me with social contact It is exciting, fast rewards makes me feel important and powerful Watching videos provides me with social contact Inspires me, allows me to see who I could be. Relaxing provides information that allows me to better myself So, ever since I started gaming again, I have stopped contemplating as often as I use to. Cons of doing these activities Time is being wasted. Which could be used to develop more fulfilling relationships, or gaining skills to make me feel more important.( immediate feedback isn't given in these activities) people are very often toxic online which can make me feel quite bad. The one thing that actually meets all pros from my addictions, and alleviates my cons is contemplation. I will try to do more of it, it is the step before I take action.