Ego backlash ?

[karkaore]

Hey guys, so for a couple of months now i have fallen back to my weed phase. Feel like i can stop it whenever i want easily but never do. All kinds of stories of excuses and even plans of how it can easily get out of it easily. Like "enjoy numbing yourself for a bit, you can get out whenever you want". Sneaky bitch. Broke my meditation for 7days now.  Feel like i know exactly what to do bet cant get myself to do them. Anyone can relate? Any suggestions?

I got behind with my studies, no motivation to go to work or do anything really. Anxiety building up cause of that too. Its this extreme laziness atm, i do enjoy it at some level but i still understand that this is extremely anti-productive. This pursue for pleasure is fucking hard to overcome.

[DrewNows]

Observe your thoughts very carefully. You may come to realize they are creating all the meaning in your life, from the laziness and productivity to the anxiety and pleasure. This means there can be as much or as little meaning given to your life, dependent on the focus

Try to simply start doing and use less interpreting (labeling), judging, assessing. Leave all that for practical planning and know the mind wants to control your situation, insure your success, and find any problem that might get in your way. 

The mind  creates all of the delusion, even that which is you. Feel free to be playful with it and see if what you might usually label as productivity can be enjoyable 

[Rokazulu]

2 hours ago, karkaore said:

This pursue for pleasure is fucking hard to overcome.

Oh it is easy. Allow yourself pleasure while understanding there is no reason to waste energy by thinking and being guilty because of those thoughts.

This will give you the energy to do whatever you need to do, if indeed, you decide you need to do them or not.

 

[karkaore]

Thank you for the replies, guys.