I took Modafinil on the job

[jivvie]

I took Modafinil on my night shift at Walmart.  I broke down and cried on my break. During my job I practiced mindfulness. Here’s what I learned. I won’t make you read an essay.

 

I am not in control. 

I no longer WANT CONTROL

Instead of taking an Uber home, I allowed hmmm. Did I allow though? I refused ego. No more good or bad choices. ‘The Choice’ Their choices. They as in my ancestors, past encounters, and animals. Everything.

Wow, all people really are on equal footing. 

A kid working with me came to me and told me “God told me to come to you. Here’s my struggle. “ We shook hands after. I cried right after. 

My surroundings are as perfect as they need to be. There’s no need to distinguish a nice neighborhood from a ‘bad’ one. It’s all good. 

I, We, It has a long way to go.

[Leo Gura]

@jivvie So you attribute this to modafinil expanding your awareness?

If so, you would absolutely LOVE mushrooms or LSD.

And don't even get me started on how much you'd love 5-MeO

5-MeO is like modafinil x100000

[Nathan J]

@jivvie make sure to take these medicines with absolute respect! If you are sensible to modafil psychedelics are in another realm! You had an awakening experience, don't get hang up in concepts my bro! If you live in a shitty neighbor you live in a shitty neighbor no matter how detached you are from your mind.... take care of yourself! Love your ego, your ego deserves as much love as anything else in existence! Totally stronger medicines and tools ? much love hommie ❤

[JohnnyBravo]

Thats beautiful to hear.

Every time I have taken modafinal I have also cried.

The state of love/connectivity/grand scheme plan/ beauty is like I cannot fathom. Intense love.

I am trying Armodafinal next week.

Much respect for the recommednation. Modafinal is also very "gentle" and easy.....its not weak, its just gentle for the soul. So much different and better than dexamphetamine or adderall.

LSD is shortly down the list. Microdosing. I am no longer too scared of not being in control.