Its not fair that awakening is so difficult

[Monkey-man]

I AM AGAINST THAT AWAKENING IS SO DIFFICULT

I AM AGAINST THAT I AM BOUND BY SUCH A HELPLESS DREAM CHARACTER WHO HAS NO POWER AND NO WILL TO WAKE UP

I AM AGAINST THAT I HAVE TO BE A PRISONER OF THIS CHARACTER'S FLUCTUATIONS AND HIS UNSTABLE MOOD AND HIS LACK OF FOCUS.

I AM AGAINST THAT HUMAN-BEINGS ARE SO WEAK

I AM AGAINST THE NEED OF SURVIVAL AND AGAINST DEATH

I AM AGAINST THAT ALL THE LIFE TENDS TOWARDS PROCESS OF INEVITABLE DESTRUCTION AND THAT THERE IS NO SALVATION FROM THAT

I AM AGAINST THAT WE HAVE SUCH A LIMITED AMOUNT OF TIME ON EARTH, AND THAT WE SPEND MOST OF IT DREAMING, ANOTHER CHUNK OF IT TRYING TO WAKE UP FROM DREAM, AND WHEN WE SUPPOSE TO LIVE?

I AM AGAINST THAT LIFE HAS NO MEANING, NO VALUE, NO PURPOSE.

I AM AGAINST THAT PHYSICAL EXISTENCE IS SO INERT AND PRISON-LIKE

I AM AGAINST SUFFERING, AND PAIN, AND POSSIBILITY OF EXPERIENCING AGONY AND TERRIBLE PHYSICAL PAIN. THIS IS NOT FAIR THIS IS INSANE THIS HAS NO JUSTIFICATION AT ALL!!!! IF YOU EVER FELT ANY TERRIBLE PAIN - YOU KNOW THAT IT JUST SHOULDN'T EXIST AT ALL!!!!! EVEN FOR THE WORST AND CRUELEST OF US.

I AM AGAINST THIS REALITY, I AM AGAINST ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING - ALL MEANINGS, ALL IDEAS, ALL GOALS, ALL HIGHS. AND ALL OF THE SELF-DEVELOPMENT

I AM AGAINST THIS DARKNESS WHICH GIVES YOU NO CHANCE

I AM AGAINST INFINITY

I AM AGAINST MY OWN SELF.

I AM AGAINST ANY POSITIVE STATEMENTS. I AM AGAINST ANY CLAIMS

I AM AGAINST THAT LIFE IS THE WAY IT IS

I DON'T WANT TO SEE ANY JUSTIFICATION IN THIS ABSURD TRAGEDY OF HUMAN EXISTENCE

I DON'T THINK THAT GOD WANTS US TO JUSTIFY THE WAY THINGS ARE,

TO NAIVLY CLAIM THAT OH DEAR ITS NOT ALL SO BAD, ALL THE DESTRUCTION PAIN TYRANNY DREAM - SO WHAT. ITS JUST THE WAY IT IS. BE GRATEFUL THAT YOU HAVE A TINY GLIMPSE OF EXISTING.

NO ! I THINK HE WANTS US TO DENY THE WAY IT IS! TO DENY THEY WAY THINGS ARE.

AND TO DENY ANY KINDS OF ALTERNATIVES BECAUSE ANY ALTERNATIVE IS JUST ANOTHER DREAM. IS JUST A COMPROMISE. IT DOESNT PUT END TO THIS ABSURD BUT JUST MAKES IT A BIT BETTER.

I DON'T WANT BETTER. I DON'T WANT COMPROMISE. I DON'T WANT HAPPY. COZ HAPPY DOESN'T SAVE US FROM ROCK OF DESTRUCTION AND PAIN AND PRISON.

I WANT THIS OPRRESSION TO END. ALL POSSIBILITIES OF DESTRUCTION AND PAIN AND PRISON OF DREAM MUST END FOR ALL CREATURES.

ANIMALS DOESNT DESERVE TO EXPERIENCE PAIN AND DESTRUCTION AND TO BE IN UNCONSCIOUS SLEEP. NOR DO YOU. NOR DO ALIENS. NOR DO ANYONE.

SO I SAY NO TO EVERYTHING AT ALL! I SAY NO BECAUSE NOTHING AT ALL SAVES US FROM THAT POSSIBILITIES.

COME AND SAY NO BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER EVER REALLY LIKE ANYTHING AT ALL BECAUSE NOTHING EVER SAVES YOU NOR IT SAVES OTHERS.

I SAY NO FOREVER AND EVER TO INFINITY AND BEYOND.

I SAY NO TO REALITY! I SAY NO TO THE VERY FACT THAT I MUST ACCEPT THINGS THE WAY THEY ARE. I SAY NO THAT FACT!

I SAY NO TO ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING!

I SAY NO TO MY CHARACTER WHO ALWAYS SEEKS TO FIND COMPROMISE. CHARACTER ONLY WANTS TO FIND WARM AND HAPPY STATE OF BEING. I SAY NO TO THAT. BECAUSE WARM AND HAPPY PLACE DOESNT DELIVER YOU FROM INEVITABLE CATASTROPHE

 

 

Edited March 27, 2019 by Monkey-man

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