Your spiritual practices, no matter what they are, must result in the realization that there is no "you" behind "your" eyes. If you keep believing you are the ego and the body, and feed them non-duality concepts and theories, you'll eventually come to the realization that life is pointless and meaningless. If you hold such a belief for long enough, you'll be depressed/suicidal. That would be missing the point entirely. So follow these steps: Calm the fuck down. Take a few deep breaths. Focus on anything but your mind to take the energy away from your head.  Calm down the mind with any method that works best for you. There are thousands of methods. Become aware of the fact that you are aware, and explore that experience. Whenever ANY thoughts arise that try to explain your experience, shut them down. Don't even entertain concepts. Don't ask yourself questions, don't look for answers. Just explore. Don't expect realization to come in words. ABOVE ALL ELSE, don't believe in your own nonesense about how life is meaningless, or pointless. That is still a concept. That concept is what is pointless.