LSD -Internal feelings manifested in others body language and behavior on LSD

[samedm9]

I recently had a trip with 3 others, close friends of mine. We each took 200ug of LSD. 

During the peak of this trip (my personal experience only) I noticed that my internal feelings and emotions were being expressed in the body language and words of my friends. At one point, for instance, I began to feel a negative emotion building (which was not expressed only felt internally) and this was mirrored immediately by all 3 of my friends as they began to exclaim that they felt “hot” and seemed to be restless and fearful, I myself was feeling like a boiler at this point. I also noticed that any feeling of egotism resulted in such negative reactions through my friends, mainly through their body language. 

 However this was contrasted by positivity and excitement( in their body language) when I felt feelings such as forgiveness, inclusiveness and acceptance, this felt like pure nirvana at the time. 

What I feel from this polarity is, fearing losing the sense of “nirvana” resulted in it dissolving immediately and being replaced by a sense of emptiness and shame. However, I was able to return to the nirvana state by literally repenting or accepting the negativity, this also felt like I was surrendering my ego.

Sensations or imaginations of climbing and falling from a waterfall. Or constructing then destroying a beautiful structure correlated to the polarity I felt. I had a strange intuition that “a collective body of pure light” was what was at the peak of this waterfall or structure. However, each time I had I glimpse I would fall.

 

as the peak passed, I also had this feeling that I was god being manipulated by my friends, who seemed to me like they were trying to lead me to my death. 

All in all, a wack trip. Can’t help but feel like I missed out on a potentially spiritual awakening. Feeling rather confused about how to integrate such an experience.

 

[FoxFoxFox]

@samedm9 My own experiences recently conform with this view quite a bit. It's as if the world is literally created in the mind, and projected on the screen of the Self, depending on what I want it to be.