Ponderings and Dreams - do we have it in reverse..

[Mish]

Hello,  

Firstly, when I say 'god' I mean 'eternal consciousness' and I'm going to be talking about my human experience only(as in my present form, I don't know any better)...cbf saying 'eternal consciousness' so just to reiterate God = 'eternal consciousness'... Ok i've said it a fair few times now

So I have this theory that the way we experience our dreams is the way God experiences our existence.  That includes the nightmares.  So there are many layers of dreams. With my experience that I can consciously remember - is standard dreams, nightmares and lucid dreaming(also sleep paralysis but that's another story). I wonder if dreams are a underestimated clue for us to give us a glimpse of how God observes/experiences us as humans.  I mean, in a dream/nightmare we can't actually feel 'physical' pain however we do feel all the emotions with that experience as it is happening(when unaware that we are dreaming), it feels completely real, even if it is something ridiculously outrageous and nonsense once we are awake from the dream, but when in the dream it feels relative. Credibility is something I wouldn't even think about questioning whilst in a dream(and not aware that I am dreaming).  So with the dreams and nightmares when we are unaware - could be the same as God in us, living our human lives and not being aware of God in us(and vice versa God not being aware of self in us) and that the 'lucid' dreams are the same as us/God being 'awake' and being aware of God in us/in everything.   So with that being said, maybe we have it in reverse(dreams and being awake).

The other thing I have been pondering about is this;  For  someone who has never experienced any realisations  etc in that lifetime and has gone through life in mostly delusion, torment and suffering... When they die, I would think that they would get the biggest shock, joke, absolute delight/euphoria, outrage(simultaneously with disbelief, belief, disbelief, belief..etc)  which would be felt so strongly by that persons consciousness and together felt by God peaking to a orgasmic unconditional love sensation... ok ok.  
So for a person who is already enlightened to die... I guess that experience would be different with intense emotions stemming from a different realisation(eg.. this is what it is like to be completely out of the human perspective and into the perspective of whatever the fuck I want)... but it makes me think that the 'orgasm' at physical death probably wouldn't be as strong as the realisation of the 'unenlightened' person or maybe just a different type hahahaha(maybe just not as funny coz the jokes already been had I really don't know).

The other thing a have been pondering on is.. yes just like our language and time, positive and negative are just concepts that we created. I'm going to speak about things from my perspective as a human who likes to feel what we label as 'pleasant and good' sensations.  Eg I think love and orgasm are the best feelings ever.  I don't like to feel the shitty feelings like pain and suffering.. Pretty standard.  However, in my experience with my episodes/glimpses into realisation, what I understood in the communication was that we as humans are special in that we have given creation to these intense feelings of love and physical orgasm etc intensified from a human perspective that previously did not exist(not to say other creatures we don't even know about haven't produced such experiences... I wouldn't fucking know) which is intense as fuck.  Yes the pain and suffering is also intense however, I don't think the mass, immaterial, everlasting brain(consciousness) chooses to feel the 'negative' feelings.  I do think that it chooses to feel the 'positive' feelings(perhaps negative as a reminder of how awesome it has it in order to be able to choose?).  And that is what is considered 'heaven' if you like - being a consciousness who chooses unconditional love because although it has unlimited capacity, it also has the intelligence & freedom to choose.   Yeah you could say if it has unlimited capacity why would it just not feel everything?  Well, I believe it does like us when we are dreaming but that's it.  I don't think it chooses to put itself through shitty experiences over and over again like we do as humans.  I'm not saying it hasn't experienced all the shitty feelings(coz it does through us and everything) but in its purest form, I think it chooses not to. Lets say I'm God in its purest form, no material attachments, unlimited capacity blah... To put it simply I have the choice to exist as love or hate. I know I would choose the former... I also realise with us as humans that without the crappy things happening to us, we wouldn't be able to recognise and appreciate the good things.. hmmm maybe that is also another one of our missions to the universe, to take one for the collective team.. Perhaps we are a constant reminder to the universe that being formless is much more appealing than being form.
I guess if I was a immaterial universe baby who could do anything and not feel physical pain, after a while I would probably get sick of myself and seek out more only to be reminded of how good I actually have it(after coming back from a physical form).  As long as things are always moving/transforming which is inevitable regardless of whatever happens, there will always be entertainment/experience for the universe... this would be happening simultaneously and I wonder how many other planets, dimensions etc exist with beings doing the same thing as us but through their unique experiences and how long it takes other existences to evolve to such a state that interests the universe.  Perhaps when Love gets lost  and no longer exists in a species as a whole, is when that species is no longer worth observing and being part of(maybe this is what contributes to extinction).  I guess it also comes down to focus, different points in dimensions that the universe chooses to focus on(at the same time as everything getting recorded and accessible whenever just like a unlimited hard drive).

I think it is interesting that to date we have not yet the capabilities to explore far enough to find other life forms outside of earth(or maybe we have but it is secret information) anyhow, what I'm saying is regardless of whether we have or we haven't - Earth is so far away(in human measurement) from any other source of sentient beings - I think that this fact, in itself is another massive clue indicating us to search inwards.  As in yes, we suck, were selfish and brutal and all the shitty things, but we are also amazing, loving and beautiful beings capable of being aware of God within sooo... from what I understood was that pure formless God 'chooses' to take what God considers 'good' feelings/thoughts which would be relative to eternities experiences lol eg) from humans - love, sex and go further... immaterial creation of fantastical creatures doing all sorts of fun shit, somersaults, flying, swimming, music, frequencies etc etc(including all the other non-human experiences, creations etc) What an imagination!!  But what if imagination = reality?!  Anyhow, can also flick through the painful/annoying shit if it feels like it.  Also, we as humans have contributed heavily and intensely.  I know you can argue that God is neutral and I am simply coming at it from a human/egotistical perspective(maybe I am)... but with my own personal realisations the messages I understood were so obvious to me, in that human death means absolute bliss, human life means delusional pain and suffering.  Hmmm...and to believe that can be dangerous from a human perspective if we haven't had the training or prior understanding(when I first had these blasts of realisations in my early 20's.. I did end up in a mental hospital for a few weeks). 

Whatever form we are in adds to the collective experience.

The other thing I'm trying to get my head around is the consciousness within us that does not want to let go of the filtered human understanding.  So if I died as a human and was exposed to the truth but was too stubborn and scared to accept the truth.. what would happen to that part of my consciousness?  Would it just be floating there in condensed negativity, in accumulation with other same consciousness that were also unable to let go of the delusional existence they just came from? Is that a black hole? Or maybe that part of me would default into a fetus!

I know a lot of these ponderings may conflict with each other..
In everyday life I'm still anxious as fuck..there's a lot I'm unable to actively maintain, but I guess in my early 30's I have been gradually getting kinda better with self love etc

If you did end up reading this.  Thanks

If not.. I am Lolithania queen of the dessert rhinos and have come to eat your babies.. what.

-Mish

[Mish]

Hey Mish thats some rather insightful stuff u got going on there.. what else do u have to say? Like i heard u run a chicken franchise where u deep fry the off-feathers of warrior shield maidhens into golden, crunchy flakes whilst the chickens  themselves guard the fortress & spit seeds at the customers.. is it true?

[Mish]

Wow.  Just wow. I'm not sure who you heard that from but you really need to firm up the facts before spreading such heresy.   I am deeply concerned that you would state such rubbish about hens spitting seeds at people from their perches above whilst playing blackjack, just to get my attention. Well now you have it you swine.. so what do you want weirdo?

[Mish]

Look I'm sorry to hurt ur feelings its just that.. well.. ur right i do want ur validation & feather fries.. i heard they're really good & full of nutrition & rabies.

[Mish]

Fine... the shield maidhens do spit seeds.. but it's not actually at the customers.. its at their food. Pretty much to dust it with a bit of extra garnish.. like what they do with poppy seeds.   How do u feel now. U have my attention & validation. Now go to hell. 

[Mish]

 You're very passive aggressive Mish. I can totally tell from this post.  Also stop picking ur buttcrack u dirty mole.