I did a Qeeg/Brain scan

[Aeris]

I know there is nothing like a "silent mind". but I have full awareness of non duality. Means you go through the real others side of life.

to me you're not as enlightened as me, but sure that's an egoic sentence ( hahaha ) 

Wish to brainscan me.

I feel like an alien exploring the human condition

 

thanks for answers

Edited March 15, 2019 by Aeris

[tsuki]

@Arhattobe I can see the relative nature of the mind and I get that the reference point determines our perception.
How would I know that I actually hit the rock bottom in this work, however?
Are we simply bound to look for more and more methods, just to be extra sure?

Also, you were very critical of nondualists claiming infallibility in the other thread. Aren't they simply ignorant like we all?
I mean, ignorance is not an excuse, but at the very least - it's our existential condition. 

1 hour ago, Arhattobe said:

I was still emo beaneath the surface, angered, frustrated, it was just easier to deal with. As maharaj once said “the ego still arises for me it just dissipates as soon as it arises.” It was such a state. It felt like that, but in hindsight it only appeared like that because my reference point was severely limited. 

I can relate to this. How did you break through? I recently tried psychedelics with great results.
Very potent when it comes to making trauma resurface.

1 hour ago, Arhattobe said:

At a certain volume using the analogy I used my brain stopped being able to consciously thing or engage in an inner dialogue. I couldn’t talk to myself mentally if I chose to. It felt very unnatural if I attempted it.

My progress is mostly mentally driven when I look curiously into my mental patterns and disrupt them with questioning.
I had two realizations that left the mind speechless for a few minutes. Then, I wanted to test whether I can think or not and the mental chatter resumed. I can still the mind at will, but the will dissipates after some time as if I forgot what I was attempting to do.
Would concentration practices help me?

1 hour ago, Arhattobe said:

The only time an internal dialogue is present is when I am typing oddly enough. I don’t understand why lol.

Is it present when you are reading mentally? Or is it when typing? Are you thinking the words as you are typing them, or are the dialogs parallel and  loosely related?

1 hour ago, Arhattobe said:

In regards to psychological feelings. I have them. They are, however, drastically reduced in intensity and some feelings I’m incapable of having. Eg feelings of ill will even in reaction to something, pride, anger (I often feel helpless in a way in its stead.)

That's reassuring. I'm starting to get the better of my anger. I don't lose lucidity as much as I used to.
Do you pick up on emotional cues when talking to people? Do you co-feel people's emotions, or do you read them via looking?

1 hour ago, Arhattobe said:

Physical pain wise That’s an odd question. Why would I damage my body lol. I’m not stupid. I have thought that my relationship to pain has changed when I have been in pain eg recently I had some kidney pain because of a kidney stone. Nothing serious doe

Right. As it turns out, we're not stupid enough to be deterred from hurting ourselves only in fear of pain lol.
I can get that you don't deliberate over actually hurting yourself, but a completely still mind with no background chatter frightens me a little.
I no longer talk to 'me', I mostly explain concepts to other people mentally when I connect unrelated bits of knowledge.

1 hour ago, Arhattobe said:

last but not least I’m more functional than ever. 

Glad to hear that .

Edited March 15, 2019 by tsuki

[Arhattobe]

Checked this post one last time before I hit the sack. Will respond tomorrow:) @tsuki

[Enlightenment]

@Arhattobe Did they measured your gamma brain waves? Do you have more or less gamma?

[Arhattobe]

@Enlightenment she didn’t measure my gamma waves, said some stuff about other waves but didn’t seem to interesting to me so I forgot. @tsuki thoughts or an internal dialogue is only present when reading and typing things.

The average person in non duality is ignorant in regards to many many things on average, eg their own subconscious mind, how deep the traumas they have experienced pre awakening go, how much it shapes their behaviour, emotional states and so on.

They merely shed the body identification delusion. Many many delusions remain, and are shed as they progress. So are they just ignorant as well? Well, yes, but of other things. 

To me a traditional non dual person is just as much up their own ass, and clueless about reality as anyone else though.

In regards to the path. Meditate, be consistent, and aim for growth. Wanting to realise something ur not ready for all the time. Leads to frustration, self deceit, fantastical thinking and other nonesense. It will come. Gl

[Aeris]

17 minutes ago, Arhattobe said:

@Enlightenment she didn’t measure my gamma waves, said some stuff about other waves but didn’t seem to interesting to me so I forgot. @tsuki thoughts or an internal dialogue is only present when reading and typing things.

The average person in non duality is ignorant in regards to many many things on average, eg their own subconscious mind, how deep the traumas they have experienced pre awakening go, how much it shapes their behaviour, emotional states and so on.

They merely shed the body identification delusion. Many many delusions remain, and are shed as they progress. So are they just ignorant as well? Well, yes, but of other things. 

To me a traditional non dual person is just as much up their own ass, and clueless about reality as anyone else though.

In regards to the path. Meditate, be consistent, and aim for growth. Wanting to realise something ur not ready for all the time. Leads to frustration, self deceit, fantastical thinking and other nonesense. It will come. Gl

define fantastical thinking.
 

[Viking]

it seems like everyone is praising your results, but aren't they bad news? i mean inability to think and bad memory is making you less effective in the world. not talking about your internal state, but what you can give to society.

sadhguru always says that you should experience life fully, and not in a dull way.

[Arhattobe]

@Viking My ability to retain information my system seems useful eg in my studies hasn’t been affected.

I understand things and people in a much deeper way than before, and more functional than ever before.

[thesmileyone]

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Severe lack of activity and engagement along the sensory motor cortex and default mode network which she called the seat of the idea of self. I don’t know what else these two areas do. I don’t science well lol.

That's good news. the ego is the default mode network.
 

He claims enlightenement but isn't enlightened, yet.

[Arhattobe]

@thesmileyone The ego is not a singular thing. Your chakric system carries karmic impressions through out your nervous system and body.

Mere mind body disidentification, knowing who you are, and non duality does not rid you of them. Nor should it be considered enlightenment. Yet it is.

People greatly exaggerate what being in a permanent awakened state means, because of fantastical thinking, escapism and lack of genuine listening.

Nearly all non dual teachers say they learned, the hard way, they still had a ton of growing to do post awakening, and still suffered. Examples include : adyashanti, Jeff foster, jan esmann, David spero, Maharishi mahesh yogi. Just to name a few. 

Selective hearing doesn’t allow people to look at things honestly though.