Discipline, Devotion and Sacrifice

[Weltschmerz]

There isn't a reason not to be involved in the universe, it already flows through all of us!

I have been taking myself so seriously ever since my birth, and all this has resulted in is dishonesty, unwillingess to be vulnerable, unwillingness to love, accept surrender and face discomfort. Looking back on my last post here, it was so full of resentment, duality and delusion. But that little child has grown.

Sometimes honesty is too much to bear, and that is why I haven't been on this forum for so long. Yet I have learnt so many valuable things from people here that it would be unshowing of gratitude to the universe not to be involved. You are all so unique in your own unfoldings that I cannot resist being inspired to share myself.

As my exploration of the Kundalini energy and breathing deepened, I came to realise that I am not at all external or internal, they are the same and flow into each other. Yoga is sexual communion with the universe.

When I realised this, all of a sudden my stage blue belief that business was bad and unselfish shattered, and I was obsessed with giving and receiving within the divine. A greater sense of value to my life appeared.

This is what I have wanted as a little child, to understand what is so mystical about the blue sky, I don't mean the mundane blue sky that we see all the time, I mean seeing yourself in the sky and marvelling at the wonder and beauty of it all. There were so many times in my early childhood that these situations happened, back then they were even more mystical because I had no conceptual idea of what the experience actually was.

From my own unflowering, I have carried that discomfort is always the way, however I must also face the discomfort of one day surrendering that too. But for now, from discomfort I can extract these values that I love and love to express:

1. Discipline, to be in such constant love with what is that I can not help but render service
2. Devotion, to realise that I am already so complete that the only thing to be is devoid of myself
3. Sacrifice, Asceticism, facing all discomforts no matter what the cost, brutal and radical honesty, unending servitude to my higher self
4. Conviction, to always shaping and reshaping myself, choosing the way of higher consciousness

These are all the same, they are just different expressions of the same beauty.

I am your father, and your child.

You are my father, and I am your child.

Satnam

 

Edited March 6, 2019 by Weltschmerz

[Weltschmerz]

I have been wanting to train Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu for a while, When I first heard of the benefits of it I knew it was on my path.

After my first hour I was hooked, I had fasted and stayed awake the entire night beforehand after watching an amazing video on Jiu-Jitsu and spirituality by this same guy. There is so much room for playfulness and consciousness.

It sparked a change in my consciousness, I immediately realised that I no longer had to work at my insane bartending job, working during the night and sleeping during the day. I am now waking up at 4:30 am every morning, meditating 30 minutes in the morning and night for a total of an hour, and respecting myself in my actions.

This was the video that I watched late at night that kept me so awake: