Prayer Swat Team

[moon777light]

thank you sooo much everyone, this truly means a lot

@bejapuskas @FoxFoxFox @okulele

[tsuki]

15 hours ago, flowboy said:

I Do Not Deserve To Die

For most of the past week I've been worrying about my health. I have the feeling of what I can best describe as a hole in my throat, which hurts when I breathe. Now, I'm scared to death that I gave myself throat cancer or something like that. It's connected to the guilt about not quitting smoking earlier.

I have a health related freakout once or twice a year, and every time it just seems very real that I might die soon. I'm ashamed of it. I should be thanking God that I'm still breathing.

Which I am doing. I do pray. But I also worry about scary diseases, which makes me paranoid that I'm attracting the evil by worrying about it. LOA in reverse.

I hate weird symptoms and I really, really want to feel normal again.

I tried vaping weed every night for the past week, both to calm me down and because I had read that it has anti-cancer properties. I even ate it. But now I just feel severely fucked in the head and my ability to concentrate or motivate myself are just shot.

Why do I keep worrying about my health? Something dark in me says that I don't deserve to be healthy, because I used to smoke, and that's a disrespectful and ungrateful thing to do to your body.

But guess what. That part is wrong. I have been trying to quit since I was 17. I grew up neurotic, with cumulative unprocessed trauma from my mum and dad looming over me. My addiction is understandable given the circumstances, and I am brave for fighting it. I've been smoke free for 24 days, and have put a lot of effort into eating healthy. I deserve to be "forgiven" and live a long and healthy rest of my life.

Now make the hole in my throat and the pressure behind my ear stop, please, damn it.

I would like to ask for your prayers for our friend @flowboy that is going through a difficult time in his life.

[seeking_brilliance]

1 hour ago, tsuki said:

I would like to ask for your prayers for our friend @flowboy that is going through a difficult time in his life.

Holy crap, I can totally relate. 

@okulele

How should we go about this prayer thing? Maybe vote for one a week, and the prayer team focus on that? Otherwise it will be scattered and less effective. Also, should we vote to do it a the same time in the day, or does that not matter because time is an illusion?

 

[okulele]

6 hours ago, tsuki said:

I would like to ask for your prayers for our friend @flowboy that is going through a difficult time in his life.

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[okulele]

4 hours ago, seeking_brilliance said:

Holy crap, I can totally relate. 

@okulele

How should we go about this prayer thing? Maybe vote for one a week, and the prayer team focus on that? Otherwise it will be scattered and less effective. Also, should we vote to do it a the same time in the day, or does that not matter because time is an illusion?

 

I'd propose let's just pray each one of us individually, as we can. Maybe if @flowboy wants, he can ask and we can organize a thing for him

[flowboy]

@okulele @tsuki @seeking_brilliance I just want to say thank you guys, I'm really touched that you helped me in this way, and I've been feeling a lot better.

[flowboy]

I can barely feel my weird symptoms anymore, and the worrying about my health has stopped. I can't thank you guys enough.

 

I would like to ask for a prayer for someone.

A friend and spiritual teacher (she's a tantric healer) has been suffering. She's the most vibrant and unconditionally loving mother figure to countless people. Lately, she has been ill, and the doctors can't figure out what is wrong. Friends describe it as her looking like a sick bird, so incapacitated.

I will see her soon. She asked me to keep it anonymous.

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[okulele]

6 hours ago, flowboy said:

A friend and spiritual teacher (she's a tantric healer) has been suffering. She's the most vibrant and unconditionally loving mother figure to countless people. Lately, she has been ill, and the doctors can't figure out what is wrong. Friends describe it as her looking like a sick bird, so incapacitated.

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@flowboy Thank you.

[tsuki]

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[Smurfinstein]

I'm in!

Sent intention to all folks previously mentioned in this thread! May you be happy and safe from harm, may those you love be happy and safe from harm, may you and those you love have understanding and peace. May you have ease of being... 

[enderx7]

Now this is good stuff! This kind of ACTUAL real world applications of all this work we all do is totally something  we could use more of in communities like this and others. Count me in.

Question though. I have a friend who is deeply struggling right now and I would love some help praying for him. Should I get his permission before putting him and his situation up here. He might not understand completely but would probably let me.

[okulele]

8 hours ago, enderx7 said:

Question though. I have a friend who is deeply struggling right now and I would love some help praying for him. Should I get his permission before putting him and his situation up here. He might not understand completely but would probably let me.

I think it would be good manners to ask him if you can

[okulele]

? Prayers for the planet Earth. Anyone with me?

[seeking_brilliance]

Hey guys I'm battling a moderate lasting mouth infection, it seems to be on its way out but could use some healing vibes. 

[okulele]

2 hours ago, seeking_brilliance said:

Hey guys I'm battling a moderate lasting mouth infection, it seems to be on its way out but could use some healing vibes. 

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[bejapuskas]

@AwakenedSoul444  Why is it that you are feeling this way?

[okulele]

@AwakenedSoul444 ?

[okulele]

9 hours ago, AwakenedSoul444 said:

Guys please pray for @ethanb121 aswell, he's doing really bad with his pure O ocd, he's suicidal often and is on 15 pills of psychiatric medication and even that doesn't help.

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