Struggle To Found Love,even To Have Atraction

[ranzo1]

Hi guys, i just want from you to offer some perspective,personal experience or some advice,to this topic.

The short story is that, i have struggle when i was a kid, social anxiety,and i was maybe to afraid to express emotions.But i was excited when i started high school,and hope that things will change. When started high school,i was alone,and also too scary to express myself,and because of that,i was just really disappointed . And later ,in high school, i aclimated myself,i was accepted,but,just lost my emotions, dont have deeper connection to anyone. I just lost my interest in girls, but I always wanted some relationship. I had just a little expirience with girls,but i just didn't have something deeper. Than i started college,and change my life alot because of actuallized,and other guys of personal development,and be like on steroids,and do more approach, with little success,but i was force myself, because im just lack of atraction and dont know even what i want. And finally fall in love with one girl,and she is friend of mine,but because of little experience, i just do poor and failed. Now,im in second year of college,and kinda deppressed. Im not bad looking guy,actually ,im good looking,at least ok,i have money, but im too picky and i lost my enthusiasm for that,also maybe afraid of relationship,and strange to me to be with somebody. I was alone for most of my life,that is too long,and kinda forgot that area of life,but i was socially active,just in romantic way have had struggle.  For my birthday brother buy me a guitar,and i always wanted to play. And, when i played guitar, i realized,holly shit! Life isnt boring like that, and i also have areas of life to need to improve,to also do other stuff that i wanted. And,this summer i just want to beat my limitation belifes,and that loneliness.But, need to feel again enthusiastic about that,and improve my sex drive. Im tired of complaining, and regretting,...regrets are there but fuck regrets  ,just tired of that shit. It will be painful, to go for things that i almost give up,but lets play. Like i said, if you have something to offer to place fire into me,to like girls more,share it.

[Anicko]

You are still very young, and I think the best use of youth is to try everything you can that you think might interest you. Don't get hung up on what other people think you should be doing or what is "normal", and don't beat yourself up when you make mistakes. Enjoy discovering who you are, the rest will fall into place.  

[Falk]

@ranzo1 

The stereotyp that: as a good looking guy it must be easier to find "love" or getting real connection an intimicy is not true at all ! I just realized that focusing on good looks will drive you outward, away from your deeper feelings and away from your authentic true self!! it will make you narcissitic ( i have exactly that issue) It is easyier to focus on looks and appearance and i sometimes obsess over girls how look good but in the end this kind of connection is always shallow and i hate it that´s why i started to allow more emotions into my life ..become softer, allow to appear weak, don´t spend energy in giving perfect impressions... which i rely on a lot ...it is the only way if you want to become authentic in this life.

 

[clytaemnestra]

Can you finish University without any work on yourself, experience and learning? No.

Can you find a love (or better to say build a high quality relationship) without any work on yourself, experience and learning? No.

 

Just take it easy, work on yourself, as time goes your relations with women will be better and better, first you learn and practice flirting, then approaching, then first date, and so on... It'll come by time, just be persistent, if you fail an exam at University, you don't lose your hope and you don't fell into despair, but keep on studying, learning, practicing because it the end you know you'll pass it when you're ready for it.