365 Days of Self Esteem Sentence Completion

[Karla]

day 68/365

 

To be disciplined in my soul work. To speak my truth as naturally as I breath, without a thought just the way my heart beats and as effortlessly as my eyes blink.

 

Sentence completion:

If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success:

I'd apply for speaking gigs like my life depended on it

I'd unaplogetically sell my shit

I'd address my blocks and exhale them

I'd let go of my old identity

It would be easier than waiting and putting off

I could just be real with my financial goals and making them a daily priority

 

If I were willing to work using everything I know

I would have fun just letting it out and being next level Karla

I 'd let it be easy

I only would have time for that which is moving me along

I could feel gratified at the end of the day that I emptied my power

I could feel worthy of my what I want (oops I need this as a precursor!)

I might seem over the top 

 

If I reflect on what it means to take full responsibility for my standard of living

I am empowered

I sometimes feel too disorganized to do this

I have some things I need to get complete with that I keep putting off and not facing

I feel like I do this hot and cold

I put my foot down and do the damn thing already 

how can I get this to be a constant daily focus that remains at the fore front of my activiites

I am wiling to get real with my desires and making them real... 

 

If I reflect on how it might feel to commit myself fully to financial success

ideas of being greedy arise

fear that it could be hard to maintain

I can learn and it I may enjoy learning

I would have to face what I have been afraid of and ignoring and putting off

That for me it has to be a whole person endeavor

Only on soul and that feels amazing

I can sell more and get comfy selling and become amazing at it

 

A really innovative approach to my work might be

Taking it into schools

Using expression as a cure

making it  a whole person experience live

my myth show

I fee like I keep saying the same thing for this one

Yesterday's reflection.

 

[Karla]

69/365

Kinda in a rush today gahhh. I was observing my sister’s “insanity” today and I am super motivated to get out of my head and focus solely on fully expressing and living today without repressing. So convinced that disease is stuffing down of energy or not letting flow happen. Same as if we hold our breath! Some of this is written with annoyance because i just want to slap her face and tell her to snap out of it. 

If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success

I would start every day with some selling and money tracking (check)

I would stop over emotionalizing money and showing up for the cash

I would have to get real and say my prices like nothing

Be more open about my stuff to sell

Feel more comfortable about having and making more money like no big deal

I woul have to focus all day about making sure to tell people what i have to offer and doing the stuff I know sells my work

Stick to my schedule which feels good

 

If I were willing to work using everything I know

I would enjoy this on the die empty tip

I can just stop trying to fit into a box of boring

I can be excited about speaking more and educating my fitness peeps on wellness 

I would keep it real with Janice and my clients that are stuck with results

I can hold back less and less such a drag

Get more on top of my schedule and using my tasks as way to stay out of my mind

Step into boss mode and stop settling for shit I am so over but replace it first (DPU)

Close that gap —cognitive dissonance

Live in integrity

 

If I reflect on what it means to take full responbsibility for my standard of living

Get real, I am so capable of this

Drop the stories and the comfort that is actually uncomfortable

Waking up and taking action on elevating my lifestyle 

I am the one that chooses this and have always chosen this

It means I get to stop settling for anything that doesn’t fit

It means I can live into purpose and keeping it real

Insanity is not taking responsibility 

 

If I reflect on how it might feel to commit myself fully to financial success

Feels super good 

Some fear around it being hard but I have to face those fears today

Feels like breathing in and out— life is an exchange an ebb and flow

Serving up my soul work unapologetically 

Less day dreaming and more day tight compartments

I am financially successful no big deal and no over thinking

What I focus on expands

 

A really innovative approach to my work might entail

Having more fun and more exploration

That wellness Rva idea is the bomb

No more pedestal-putting of my soul work already

Why do I dislike this question 

So repetitive

Live events-

Next level whole person wellness Assessments— great response from the 10 year journal prompt

Yesterday's refelection vid:

 

Edited April 17, 2019 by Karla

[Karla]

70/365

 

Did not want to do this today-- feeling super confronted about doing a cop out cheeseball video yesterday and will just redo it. Sometimes I hide by doing really plain jane info shares and then feel super grossed out later like wtf? I'll have to share on this a bit later.

 

If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success:

it would be more of a priority

I would focus on specifics 

stop consuming lots of info and take more direct action

reduce doing so much free stuff 

streamline my schedule

clean up some of my financial messiness

track money better on the daily-- incoming and outgoing

 

If I were willing to work using everything I know

I can stop over informing and start allowing some mistakes/imperfect action

stop putting my work on a pedestal and offer more

I would hide less and quit doing average info shares so boring

I feel so overwhelmed, with stuff that needs to fall off so quiting some of those gigs

produce something everyday perfect or not and share 

take action even when I feel like running away like today 

 

If I reflect on what it means to take full responsibility for my standard of living

spending time daily hashing out what this looks like to embody higher self

stop second guessing before and after then just move on to the next damn thing

remembering that one day I am going to die but today I can just do the damn work

just do the work every day til it's done and then move on

enjoy this fully and surrender

not care what it looks like from the outside at all 

more room out than in

 

If I reflect on how it might feel to commit myself fully to financial success

taking a day for just implementation starting with reflection on all the last month

no more waiting around lol would feel empowering

aligned and easier info flow

f it -- freedom and full on

why am I still procrastinating

expansive to just be going for it gahhh

 

A really innovative approach to my work might be

using more historical examples I love this

opening up about my own hurdles with expressing and wellness

inserting more fun with experimenting in wellness

inviting my audience to try new wellness stuff with me

this could also go in the calendar

customization being an option for upgrade

Tomorrow taking a day for just a little bit of reflection & a few tasks for implementation. Too confronting to keep doing these sentences ugh.

 

Reflection vid for day 69

Edited April 18, 2019 by Karla
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[Karla]

Day 71 is an Implementation and reflection day. The sentence completion feels like a broken record when there aren’t actions to back up the completion and it’s torture.

I also think I need to be answering the stems in present tense so as not to see the completion as something far off, or out there. For me, in order to allow embodiment, it has to feel like I am it now. Natural and aha like.

 

Yesterday's reflection: 

 

Edited April 18, 2019 by Karla
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[Karla]

“The Hero Path

We have not even to risk the adventure alone
for the heroes of all time have gone before us.
The labyrinth is thoroughly known ...
we have only to follow the thread of the hero path.
And where we had thought to find an abomination
we shall find a God.

And where we had thought to slay another
we shall slay ourselves.
Where we had thought to travel outwards
we shall come to the center of our own existence.
And where we had thought to be alone
we shall be with all the world.” 
― Joseph Campbell

[Karla]

Day 71 reflection video

 

[Karla]

72/365

I had to make a small tweak in the sentences stems. The wording was a clash with that Neville Goddard stuff I like to listen to. I want to not only feel aware but I want to feel inspired to a higher expression sooooo some of the wording was not quite right.

Words like “if” in my brain made me feel like I was putting off my transformation and actions into the future. This is a direct conflict with embodiment— goes back to the cognitive dissonance video I did early on with this work.

Anything we aspire to be, we must embody NOW even if it’s bumpy and ugly. This is how we learn everything. We learn to walk by walking, we become masters of our craft by doing our craft not studying it. 

This was just my reflection on why I needed to change up the sentence stems— I was feeling punked out kinda with that wording because I know that doesn’t work for me.

It’s the same as beginning with the end in mind. Anything projected into the future verbally or in our minds usually ends up staying there. 

 

When I reflect on what it means to use everything I know

What it means to use everything I know means that I be not do

Using everything I know is to utilize my speech and thoughts to reinforce my vision

Everything is energy

doing and failing is better than not doing = nose bleed seats

I sleep

Playing the game

Playing my game

Being a match to everything in my journal and vision

 

When I take full responsibility for my choices and actions

I live into my choices and make them from my gut

I already do this but where am I not doing this? 

I am more married to my schedule 

I focus on health, growth and feeling good in my skin

I embody my highest expression and take ownership

I can choose wtf I want even when that sneaking feeling of obligation comes up

I don’t need to explain

I reflect acceptance back to every part of me

 

When I take full responsibility for how I deal with people

I seek to understand

I listen for what they aren’t saying 

I can practice self love through other

I can be patient with the talkers

I can be honest with the talkers

I can be fully present and not escaping into mind movies

I can listen with all of my senses 

 

WHen I remain in full mental focus every moment today

it feels good because I know this is the way for me

I practice and get stronger every day

I experience now and not the clock 

I get to be authentic and not in thoughts

I keep bring myself back as needed

I get more done from a place of flow and play

I am in awe of how everything is just right

I am so grateful

 

When I am creating from a place customers trust and admire my company

I am transparent and honest

I don’t waste words, time or create filler 

I keep it real with myself first

I trust and admire the company and create from there

I don’t hide 

I live into the vision of ten years from now

I teach, work and create from seeing their highest version 

I share my experience and how I am seeing from their end

 

[Karla]

Reflection video from yesterday-- day 72.

 

 

Re-Insight: you can't be fully conscious of truth and have low self esteem at the same time, in the same moment.

Low self esteem is to be unconscious of reality.

Lots of ahas today that aren't new just feel more profound.

Someone recognized me from my fitness YT channel again today he he-- she was in my class this a.m. and zaid something afterwards.

My ego loves this he he.

No autographs at this time.?

[Karla]

73/365

I am reading that habit book thats talks about what to do if you skip... It says NEVER skip twice in a row he he.

So I did my sentence completions an hour ago. Ugh so harddd ha ha.

Today was productive af so not too bummed I almost got off track with sentence completions.

Video reflection...

I am doing a tumeric, manuka honey and banana (yumm) face mask becauae my skin is out of control-- mentiones in the video.

Edited April 23, 2019 by Karla

[Karla]

Naturalness of being/ having/ achieving. This is what I talked about last week.

 

Edited April 23, 2019 by Karla
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[Karla]

74/365

Sentence Completions ✔

Reflection video...

 

[Karla]

75/365

This morning before my strength class I felt super lost lol.

Like kinda bad and my mind was stuck on the whole "naturalness of being" from that Wayne Dyer video-- there is something to this combination:

Being "wholly" the person you want to be

Being present in the now with that energy/ let go anddd

Knowing that every though we have is externally manifested 

Anyways I can't always get to the bottom of these lost feelings like this morning.

I feel completely different now-- I have one more class then a walk by the canal. It's super nice out.

I am making progress with my one scary action per day yay. This is the only way to balance theory and practice for me-- otherwise I am slipping. 

The reflection video is hereeee:

 

Edited April 25, 2019 by Karla
Just added the reflection video

[Karla]

76/365

I didn’t do anything scary yet today because... I dragged my video from yesterday (for FOTB) into today and just posted it. It started to not feel like a big deal but I honestly think I have put that off for months— perhaps longer. I been wanted to change things up on my other channel AND offer workout calendars.

Why I make myself keep doing stuff that no longer fits sometimes? I know I could be literally RUNNING in the direction that feels jussssst right but I don’t.

Here is my sentence completion from today. 

When I reflect on what it means to use everything I know

I stand up for what I believe in or fall for anything he he

I am just playing my full hand 

There are no mistakes 

I follow my intuition and live every day

I live the life I have in my imagination be that’s what it’s there for

I say what I mean, I speak my truth like my heart beats, as I breathe and blink my eyes

 

When I take full responsibility for my choices and actions

I choose to live into my  highest expression

Full responsibility means that I can’t back down on play defense

I play offense or nose bleed seats

I follow my inner guidance system and plan but don’t become a slave to my plan

I don’t stay in my thinking- I move on and keep moving on

I know I get to close my eyes and know that I am the person I am happy to go to bed with every night

 

When I take full responsibility for how I deal with people

I see their best 

I self love through other

I listen in and hear what they are really saying

I have fun and affirm them deeply

I am happy to be in relationship

I seek to understand then to be understood

I choose to speak freely 

 

WHen I remain in full mental focus every moment today

Focus is my flow state —easier than focus when I am bored

I can get everything done on my list and then some

I am way more productive

I love that this is increasing because I am way more aware of my non-helpful thinking

I can come full circle on those small level thoughts and use them for good

I express more authentically

I am more me

I feel like a bamf 

 

When I am creating from a place customers trust and admire my company

I create mutually enjoyable products/ service

I have fun interacting with my peeps

I show who I am, act in integrity and let the rest do what it do

I don’t hide

I invite everyone into seeing and being who they really are

I deliver way more than I ever ask for 

I make sure I would be happy to leave anything I do as a legacy

[Karla]

After doing my reflection video I had a couple more thoughts:

1-men are more proactive when they see other guys catering to you... is the same as when you see someone else doing your purpose work. Similarly puts a little fire under your a$$ he he.

2-healing that separation/ split mindedness/ schizophrenia (we learn through conditioning) in everyday life by living your vision in real life IS self love, is a huge part of self actualization.

Trumps the "oh, I can't do thatttt because _____" --whatever reason we make up is the illusion and dragon yo be slayed.

I think soo switch to Youtube live in case I forget... Seems easier than recording then uploading for non-workouts.

[Karla]

Currently a little scurred to check my channel since I posted that vid yesterday... I realized I am actually avoiding it. 

I am excited to do some vids this weekend, which I haven't felt all that excited about in awhile.?

[Karla]

Here was my vid I was scared about... I checked after 24 hours— and just like the monster in the closet...

Once I just look and see— I wonder what the fuss was about.

I sometimes get annoyed that I always do this boogie man thing. 

Deep down I was kinda wanting my audience to be okay with the changes.

“Don’t sacrifice everything for nothing”— is something I used to say to my clients but it also applies to me. I thought of this, this morning as I dreaded checking my channel lol.

In fact whenever I give advice, I always find that it is actually for me. Perhaps a different application but typically some way shape or form it is really what I need to hear. This is how helping others ALWAYS helps us. How crazy is that?

And so yum amazingggg.

This morning I was talking to one of my yoga regulars and he told me that he didn’t get a job he wanted. He is super smart and I am always asking him what he really wants because he always applies for jobs for money but he doesn’t really want it— when it doesn’t work out he is bummed but I asked him today “whyyyyy, you don’t want that— you should be happy you didn’t get it,  YOU MUST FIND OUT WHAT YOU REALLY WANT.”

“The only way to feel certain is to do what you want and not settle for what others want you to do.”

Then I was like fu** —that was me talking to myself ugh.... this always happens. I feel like he will settle in the end but it’s okay. I do believe we each have to choose for ourselves. There is no other way even if we make the wrong choice we still will learn what we need to learn and I believe that.

I think I am at a point where I cannot keep making stupid choices. It feels waaaay too crappy to make inauthentic choices.

Alsooooo reading Leo’s solo retreat insights... blowing my mind. I love that high-minded stuff always makes me feel a bit detached from all the things.

Day 77/365

Sentence completion from earlier:

When I reflect on what it means to use everything I know

I am blown by the notes I just read by Leo’s solo retreat Lol

I live and “be” from a place of wholeness within and without

I can live without being so careful of everything and everyone

I can hang on to that feeling I get when I exhale in every moment just being 

I use intuition without second guessing

I act and communicate straight from soul— I get ideas and don’t wait on them because this kills my vibe and confidence

 

When I take full responsibility for my choices and actions

I keep a big picture perspective from my vision

I can be productive and out of my overthinking mode

I be who I need to be and have fun with it he he

I know ultimately I have to live internally with the choices and make them from that place

I realize this is it, no dress rehearsals

I stay real with my daily habit structures so hard

I get to lead this life experience.

 

When I take full responsibility for how I deal with people

I see them as self and treat them in the highest 

I have fun 

I keep it real and honest and try my best not to be shady or manipulative

I have the greater good in mind

I respect all parties

I won’t have low quality conversations

I always elevate or depart interactions

 

WHen I remain in full mental focus every moment today

This is hard

I can use more practice here because when I am aware I am blown away

WHen I remain in full mental focus I am sometimes overwhelmed

I am nothing/ nobody

I have to work to stay there and concentrate on each action I take

I am free to be in the moment

 

 

When I am creating from a place customers trust and admire my company

I am 100% honest always

I treat the company as a thriving creative project I get to contribute to

I listen to what customers need and elevate a service

I think into the future

I act in the now based on 10 years from now

I create something I CAN TRUST AND ADMIRE duh

I can’t do what everyone else is doing

I do what’s right for me and in my heart

[Karla]

78/365

Reading "The wisdom of Joseph Campbell" and resonating. Love? him.

All the feels. How cool is it that he is dead but straight speaking to me, giving me liiife with words he left behind in his genius af legacy.

Today I am a bit blown that its so easy to be distracted from the magic that is life.

How we learn to shit on everything beautiful and sacred and wonder why we are straight fucked in health, True wealth, relationship and in connection. Then try really fake, plastic solutions to fix the things.

Kinda just band aid/ blindfold "solutions" that keep us lost.

Today I helped pack snacks and make artful bags for the snacks--  for low income kids who might not otherwise eat if they have a snow day.:-( The snacks were pseudo- healthy and processed.

I felt a bit sad/ conflicted that this is all they get and how it would to some extent reinforce their delusions of inferiority.

I felt myself trying NOT to think about this because I wanted to just enjoy making the bags look nice and pretty.

I even included a Joseph Campbell quote on one of my bags.

Everything is a clue when we pay attention.

I know the best thing we can do is BE the example... To live our myth.

[Karla]

Day 77 Reflection

And 

78/365 reflection

 

[d0ornokey]

Thanks for the art of conscious living recommendation lol. been reading it over the past month, it's pretty good 

[Karla]

@d0ornokey great— yea! Loving that book and Nathaniel Branden. He seems so evolved for a psychologist.

I noticed you’ve been journaling again lately too ;-) I was just spying on you yesterday! 

How is it going with your sentence stems?