I'm all the dream interacting with past/present/future versions of myself

[Bluebird]

Definitely starting to lose touch with what I once thought was reality. To the point that it seems funny that I am even writing this to "YOU" at all.

I just had an experience where I couldn't distinguish if it happened in my head or in reality, they sort of merged into one happening. My thoughts, deepest fears, egoic past trauma, and reality all caught up in this terrifying synchronistic event. Out and in no longer made sense as a distinction it was all simultaneously within and somehow also out.

Consciousness became aware that the only version of the dream that is happening is right here and now. Literally what's in front of me, and there is no other dream at all. Yet they're all happening all at once and it's me interacting with different me's at different points in an arbitrary timeline.

Consciousness you trippy motherfucker. This is such a beautiful mindfuck that the only thing left to do is laugh about it and admire it from within it.

This is so hard to write, since everything I'm writing seems pointless and self-negating. 

Writing this is so meaningless, just an empty call into the void, why hello there void. 

Every time I get back to this state a bit more I always appreciate Leo's ability to express it. It's no easy task.

Already I can feel the ego backlash, no doubt that's why I'm writing here. The ego backlash is sneaky, the backlash is no longer becoming about "bad" pulls but very good pulls. The pull to communicate, to be with another person, to write here, to go out and improve stuff. Well I can feel that it is still the ego backlash, it knows I haven't given into the vices so it tempts me with the "virtues".

Welp, we're all in this together. Quite literally!

And as a final reminder, you are here entirely for yourself, to experience all this beauty. Right now. There literally is nothing else. So breathe in and admire the beauty 

[Gabriel Antonio]

Let me guess: you’ve taken psychedelics? Lol, I’ve been there.

Anyway, just remember that each of us has our own individuality. Careful not to fall into the solipsism trap.

[SoonHei]

@Gabriel Antonio yup.

The Ego POV can feel solipsism

From The ultimate POV, solipsism is true.

There is just ONENESS.

@Bluebird i also had a nice seeing in that during my sit, i knew and understood what Rupert.spira says about the feeling and sensations occuring inside of me.

With my eyes closed, i touched the top of my bed and felt it as a position point within my dark infinite blankness... Inside of me

[Bluebird]

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i touched the top of my bed and felt it as a position point within my dark infinite blankness... Inside of me

Feels good ay

[SoonHei]

Amen