TomP

A Journey To Find Myself

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I created this journal to stay commited to improving myself and track the progress on the way.

My Story

Before the real journal begins I would like to share my story with you and why I am here writing this journal. A few years ago the most part of my time was spent playing videogames. When I remember this time it almost feels like magic. A time without any anxieties and just pure fun. But after years of playing a new journey started to arise. At age 16 I discovered a community on youtube doing designs, art and more. A while later I was also part of this community and my friend circle shiftet from gamers to artists. Since I was so active on youtube I discovered a personal development video on youtube and this again changed my whole journey. I began to read books (never read books before) and subscribed to alot of personal development youtubers including Actualized.org. After a while I saw results happening in my life. My grades in school got way better and in general I got smarter. But sadly I stopped watching those videos and reading books because of my Instant Gratification Monkey who instead wanted to play videogames again. Now I am back on track and after watching more of Leo's videos I realized how important it is to become more aware. I also realized that I will probably not have the same drive as I have now in a few weeks so I created this journal to stay commitet. Because this here is so important for my life.

What I hope to change in the future

  • I don't want to pretend. I want to be my real self.
  • Get less affected by distractions and instant gratification.
  • Become more aware.
  • Having less fears and anxieties.

Main goals for the next months

  • Meditate everyday for at least 10 minutes and slowly increase the time of each session.
  • Watch one Actualized.org video per day

I hope I will update this thing regularly. If I have enough to say there will be a new entry every day. Also I want to be honest with everything I tell you here.

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Keep up the good work. You're recognition and insight will pave the road and keep you within the lines -- even if you fall outside of them, it's all good. : ) 

I struggle with an eating disorder that's pretty stable right now. But I know my triggers. My thorn in my flesh I like to call it. What keeps me steady was realizing that the relapsing mode or just minor setbacks are part of the journey for overall growth. We learn so much in the uncomfortable parts . Two steps back really is a huge leap forward. 

Keep resetting yourself , keep striving, and keep persevering --it all adds up. All your personal work adds up. All your work you've done is still in you, it ain't going anywhere. How powerful. : ) and it's yours. Plus sounds like you want to be accountable for yourself. That's bonus. Thumbs up. 

Dip into grey like thinking , put away any black & white thinking and I promise you you you'll be more aware - more mindful - and attain all that you desire for yourself. That anxiety will lesson. Peace comes. Being content where your at.. 

You're going places. Every timing serves a purpose. It's already in you! 

Best of luck on your journey. 

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I'm new here I'm not sure if you'll even see this. Didn't notice this post was awhile back. 

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