Existential Depression

[Aster]

I'm at a total loss. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to die because it seemed like everything is meaningless. But at the same time I don't want to kill myself or commit suicide. I also don't want to hurt my loved ones. 

I don't know what to do with me anymore. I think I'm going crazy. I found out through research that I might be suffering from existential depression. Leo, can you talk about it? They say it can't be cured only managed. I want to know your perspective on this topic. Thank you.