Strong deep seeing - how to proceed?

[SoonHei]

Hi

I was recently told by many on here as well as others i have talked to that i have amassed quite a bit of concepts in this search and what i need now is just observation, practices, direct experience, watching etc

And i saw briefly but powerfully

I saw and felt the power of silence!

For i am.the silence!

This was via a mild weed high to calm the thoights but it was so obvious, and so simple!

 

What also kinda triggered it was the thought / question: what exactly is this SoonHei searching for?? What kind of experience or object.. what exactly is enlightenment

 

Now for the how to proceed.

 

I'd like to know if using guided meditation as aid is ok? Or is that my ego in a way trying to use a form of concepts which i feel like i love to listen to and learn about.

 

Silent sitting meditation or guided meditation?

 

Same thing?

My main point is to avoid concepts and listening to satsangs on YouTube rupert, adyashanti, fred davis, mooji, leo etc.

 

Also, for anyone Listening, another insight i had was

 

The search/seeking IS THE SEPARATE SELF itself. It's not a process.

It is wrong to say there is a separate self seeking. That's key... Or was for me

 

Like during my sit in silence. I heard a scraping sound outside (maybe a racoon in my backyard as they often come) but i immediately noticed the ego trying to latch on it. Wanting to know what was it? Where did it come from? Always a question it puts which needs to be solved only to be set by up another question requiring solving... Movement away from the silence! Silence is what you are after. Silence is peace and happiness.

We project a goal which gets in the way of this silence.

 

Doesn't mean avoid all thoughts, otherwise how are you gonna function.

 

Avoid all ego based thoughts. Stay in Yourself.

 

[Jack River]

2 hours ago, SoonHei said:

My main point is to avoid concepts and listening to satsangs on YouTube rupert, adyashanti, fred davis, mooji, leo etc.

Thought keeps transcending it’s limit. You notice that? 

 

2 hours ago, SoonHei said:

Silence is what you are after. Silence is peace and happiness.

We project a goal which gets in the way of this silence.

This pursuit/goal is movement/reaction away from what is. This will keep the loop of thought/time circulating. There is no difference between motive/effort and thought/time. 

 

2 hours ago, SoonHei said:

Doesn't mean avoid all thoughts, otherwise how are you gonna function.

 

Avoid all ego based thoughts. Stay in Yourself.

Divided action as such will continue by process to avoid or choose to “stay in yourself”.

Still a divisive action where thought continues to transcend its own implicit limitation. 

Edited January 15, 2019 by Jack River

[SoonHei]

@Jack River hmmm yes. Seeing the nature of thought trying to understand it self is seen...

 

And yeah, i noticed that the deciding part of it is also present which it also isn't

 

And yes. Motive effort time thought . Krazzy

 

[Jack River]

22 minutes ago, SoonHei said:

Seeing the nature of thought trying to understand it self is seen...

 I mean thought transcends its own limit by looking to thought (concepts and listening to satsangs on YouTube rupert, adyashanti, fred davis, mooji, leo etc.) to bring about silence to its own movement. Because that movement of authority which involves your own as well, is what brings about reaction/response of thought/time itself.

Good that you caught it. 

22 minutes ago, SoonHei said:

And yeah, i noticed that the deciding part of it is also present which it also isn't

 

But the reaction/response is itself a happening. 

 

22 minutes ago, SoonHei said:

And yes. Motive effort time thought . Krazzy

Yeah it’s the main issue with stepping out of that field. 

[SoonHei]

6 minutes ago, Jack River said:

Yeah it’s the main issue with stepping out of that field. 

How so ? What u mean? Like having the inner and outer match? Hard to remain in the silence.?

[Jack River]

@SoonHei

what is the initiator of monkey business(thought chatter-time bound movement)? 

That would be a good think to consider fosho. 

Edited January 15, 2019 by Jack River