Okay found the answers to my first question^^ -Angelite-

[Angelite]

Oh yeahh it’s been a long time~Last week I went back to my hometown to visit my family for the new year holiday. And now I've  been busy with other programme this few days. I wanna share the latest insights with the latest guru that I've met. Who give me like a closure to my searching phase, aka convince me  to start on practicing. Haha. I've written some in my journal but couldn't write properly because I've been busy. The main point that I've learned from him is to be really down to earth...He reminds us to be good to our parents, our friends and everyone else...To treat everyone with love and mercy. Who are we to be proud anyway? We're only Creations. 

 

10/1/2019

Okay. I wanna tell a story that kinda complete my first post/searching/learning phase before I am convinced to take action(finally haha). Yesterday, I’ve met with another guru. I don’t know if he is a sage or a mystic or an auliya, but talking to him was really fun. It’s such a pity that we had to go back when we’re so into it as he excitedly  shares more wisdom. He gave satisfying answers, in fact I know so much from him, he really do have a lot of fun wisdom to tell. And I’ve found the answer to my first question about the soul oh yeah!^^ . I went with my younger bro~ 

He even gifted us with his book on how to get  closer to God. 

*btw I wrote this when the experience is still fresh & I'm kinda excited, but that's all I'm writing. Been busy. Now it got slightly different feel as more insights started to make sense..

13/1/2019

These are some of the things we talk about. I asked him a lot haha. 

Looking at everything around us, should remind us of God. Everything is a reflection of Truth.Everything is for us to see the wisdom behind it. To understand the wisdom behind everything around us...

For example, The animals…are a reflections of human behavior/characteristic. (to be precise, the characteristic of our soul/spirit)

For example:

• A snake is a reflection of a characteristic of a human who is sly. 
• A scorpion is a reflection of deception. It can attack you anytime from behind. When you least expected it.

Then he told us of the origin of monkey…it is…actually a human. But was cursed and it turns into a monkey. (snake too is a by product of a curse). I don’t know if it’s only one species or all coming from the same roots(all apes family or just one species). But again, here there is a translation that I am confused about. Idk. 

But it’s true. Because an auliyaa will never lie. Never…

And as we talk about all these, I kinda wondered what am I then?(my reflection in the animal kingdom~). And this thought popped out~ I am a horse. The soul of a horse~ hahahhaha. But it’s true. That’s why whenever I saw an open field/horizon, I always feel like I wanna run. That urge to run freely....it is irresistable~ can’t help it either~ The same feeling that I got while skating downhill. Or running downstairs. Or even figure skating. That passion, that feeling of complete freedom^^. Just looking at horses made me feel free..... I miss my childhood, where horses are everywhere haha. But now it’s a bit limited…

I think my spirit is those of a horse….haha ok I’ll stop now.  

 

 

Next, he told me of how a human being should never be proud and arrogant. We all should live together and love one another as we’re all are actually dependent on one another. From the beginning to the end**…Meeting with an auliyaa really teach me a lot.

I’m sorry everyone if I’ve ever be arrogant knowingly or unknowingly. I genuinely apologize if I’ve ever made anyone feel bad about themselves or if I’ve hurt anyone’s feelings knowingly or unknowingly. And I wanna thank everyone who had answered my questions and everyone who had made me think. I really have grown so much since my first post. And learn a lot. May God bless all of you and give His Guidance and Mercy to all sincere seeking  soul. Talking to a guru face to face really leave a long lasting effect. It really humbled you down a lot. And without getting into actualized.org , I’d still wouldn’t care about Truth. Thanks Leo. And everyone who made me think. I hope for all to find TRUTH.

Sincerely, Angelite  13/1/19

 

 

**He explain the origin of human being,There are two aspect, the physical and the non-physical(soul). Physically we are from Adam, but our soul is a different thing. It’s non physical. And about why human being  shouldn’t be arrogant. Because who are we without others? What is others and everything without God? The Creator of all Creations, who created everything from nothing. The God who is incomparable to it’s Creations.

He talks about how we are made from the lowest of all low, the sperm…which is of no value without love. Hence we shouldn’t be proud. Our life(physically) is only made possible by everything that is around us(the people). That’s for the physical body. But for the soul, the source of all souls  is….Noor Muhammad. Which means, the light of Muhammad. It is the first Creation. God Created it from nothing. Before  any other creations. Way before  the physical body of the prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) was created...

“A Light has come to you from Allah as a Clear Book.” (al-Maidah 5:15)

http://www.islamandquran.org/fatwas/is-prophet-muhammad-a-noor-or-a-human-being.html

But again, this need to be explained by those who knows better. Do not misinterpret it. Do not interpret it as something new. 

 

So, about our physical body, we shouldn’t be proud because humans  are originally weak and poor. Helpless. That’s our origin. Our physical body, only came into existence with the love of a man and a woman. With the love of a mother who keeps nurturing her pregnancy and the father who works hard to support both. We are born weak. And helpless, not knowing anything , shit and all(but well, I’m a baby back then so it’s cute~) ok just kidding don’t be mad~~runnn! , and then they further fund all of our needs and educations. The point is, we as human being really have nothing to be proud of. To be arrogant with. For we all depends on one another. 

Actually it is everyone that we’ve ever come  in contact with. Every single human being, is what make us who we are today. So don’t be arrogant. Without others you won’t be who you are today. without the prophet, I  wouldn't know how to pray, without the gurus, we wouldn't know what's true and what's not, without all those authors and books that we've read, we wouldn't know nothing. Without actualized.org, I wouldn't have all these questions, which opens up more ways for me to get closer to Truth, which encourage me to meet up with gurus and find truth which I never really care to do before. And I've found high quality books like those of Imam al-Ghazali. We all depends on God. Without God we wouldn't be able to make any movement possible, as everything is in the control of God...But we are given choices....

 

It’s like a mind game. Everything is interconnected. If you go deep enough,  you’ll find truth. It all will only lead you  to one truth. Be sincere and God will guide you.

Another important thing that he talks about is, this world is like an entrance. It’s only an entrance to a huge mansion. Or like a bathroom. Without the bathroom, a house will be full of shit. It is necessary, but not to be proud of. There is no place for arrogance so we should be humble if we wanna get closer to God.

So this world(everything that we see: the earth and the entire universe) is only a preparation for the afterlife. The seven layers of the earth together with the seven layers of the universe(including all of the different dimensions), is like a ring in a desert~ compared to the afterlife. The real deal started after we died. Real death. Not the nondual death btw. If using the term "to die before you die" ,  I am talking about the latter, not the prior. That’s what I mean by Real death. A lot of what he says kinda reminds me of hellspeed. He did talk about not having to read all the books. But he gifted me with his book, it's not really much about knowledge but like a practice to purify ourselves. Physically and internally for the soul. To get closer to Allah*. Again, I wanna thanks everyone who sincerely answered all of my questions patiently. Sorry if I've ever be annoying or something..

Okay I hope everyone will find real Truth. Sincerely I wish the best for everyone... 

I had found the answer to my first question. What does the soul made up from... It is from Noor Muhammad. The Light of the Prophet Muhammad(May Allah be pleased with him)^^. To actually start practicing with a peaceful mind, heart and soul. I hope everyone do(find their answers). I think what matters is the intention. As long as you're sincere, you'll be fine. God will guide you

 

 

*btw,be careful. My definition of Allah might be different than what you think of as I mentioned it~ It will be too long for me to explain so I wouldn't even start~