Daily meditation diary and focusing on music

[Tistepiste]

In this thread I will start keeping a daily meditation diary.

After each meditation session I will practice my piano.

To be updated

[Tistepiste]

It's crazy how it has been 2 months and I just forgot about this thread. I feel like I wrote it just yesterday, even though it has already been 2 months ago.
I have been meditating. But not daily. Also the piano is slacking. This is such a reminder of how I should put this into work better.
 

06/03/19

Duration: Roughly 40 min, late in the evening / night

Focus: 
Focus could be better. Was very tired and was in a dream-like state. Was hard to catch me in the act, and too tired to fight against the thoughts.
The thoughts were not intrusive. It was more of a healing that was taking place. Been through some hard decisions lately.

Emotions:
Emotions were mostly ok. Some sadness. Which is normal seeing where I am coming from

State after meditation:
Fell asleep right away, didn't have any trouble sleeping.

 

07/03/19

Duration: 20 min

Focus: 
Bad. Been unmotivated lately, a bit tired.

Emotions:
Normal, nothing bad, nothing extremely good.

State after meditation:
Normal

[Tistepiste]

08/03/19

Duration: not sure

Focus: Pretty good

Emotions:

Felt surge of energy through my body. Heart rate increased. The more I focussed on my body, the more this energy increased. After a while stopped focussing because the energy became too much

State after meditation:

Relaxed

Edited March 9, 2019 by Tistepiste

[Tistepiste]

18/05/19

Been having a horrible way of keeping up with my meditation.
Really really horrible.

Meditated for one hour yesterday:

Focus: Not that good

Emotions: Surge of energy again, feel my third eye pulsating

State after meditation:

Extremely relaxed

[Zigzag Idiot]

4 hours ago, Tistepiste said:

Emotions: Surge of energy again, feel my third eye pulsating

That distinct word.'pulsating' describes my experience of it as well. 

[Tistepiste]

Will try to start again.

 

08/01/2019:

Meditation for just +- 15min.

0-5 min: let my mind calm down

5-10 min: Counted to 100 slowly and paused between every number, focusing on the silence.

10-13 min: Energy seemed to have been accumulating in my body while counting. Suddenly I let all the energy flow through my body.
My heart started to beat very fast and I started twitching. This lasted for approx 20-30secs. After this the energy subsided

12-15 min: Just sat in relaxation state for 2 more mins before opening my eyes and going back to what I was doing