Reaching Deep Relaxiation

[Yonkon]

Dear fellow self actualizers,

through lucky circumstances i find myself in the possession of a lot of free time for the next half year.

Besides a business project and developing my relationship, i want to work towards a goal that is dear to me: to feel relaxed, very deeply.

A part of me tells me that it is quite selfish to pursue relaxation,  it doesn't help anybody! But the other  parts of me says that people will benefit and be positivly influenced by a calm and relaxed spirit. Also it feels nice! The second voice is louder by far so i make this post.

The thing is i am a total noob.

I know a tiny bit about standard meditation and almost nothing about more body oriented practices like hatha, qi qong and tai chi (by the way, whats the difference between tai chi and qi qong?) I don't know if it's even wise to "Pursue" a state of mind and body, i think it's an attachment itself to want relaxation but i don't know how to handle that. 

Basically, i am clueless. My Goal is to deeply sink in to my body, like when i was a child and listened to music or relaxed in the sun.  I am 21 year old, and everything feels like a rush. When i read a book i think of the next one to buy while still reading the introduction.  When i walk the dog i hurry. When i eat i devour.  Maybe you can relate?

I am lost. Should i ground myself in breathing? Should i "just let go"? Should i do hatha yoga, qi qung, tai chi or another one of the thousand exercises out there? Should i focus on family, on relationships? Read more books? Exercise more? Exercise less? Find the root cause? Stop Overthinking? 

Maybe some of you can guide me, or give me subtle pointers to the road i want to travel. I would be thankful for everything.

Cheers

 

PS: pic related

 

Edited January 5, 2019 by Yonkon

[Giancarlo]

Great goal man! I love the idea of just spending a few months just relaxing...

From reading your post, a few ideas came to mind:

First, all these body-oriented practices are all leading you towards one thing (just like how all meditation practices lead you to just one thing): relaxing the body. If I were you, I would just focus on relaxing throughout the day, all day, every day. You don't need a practice necessarily when it comes to relaxing the body.

Second, if you're a noob at meditation, watch out! Expect an ego backlash because despite what you think, your ego does not want to sit there and do nothing for months on end.

Good luck to you