Intense experience on weed yesterday

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So yesterday I did one big hit on a bong, I didn't smoke for about two weeks before that and I'm quite sensitive to weed. After about 30 minutes it began hitting hard and lasted for about 1 hour after that. I was with two friends. When it began hitting, I was literally in control by this intense force and I just tried to surrender. One wave after another coming over me. It became so intense that I couldn't take it anymore, I had to get back to ''me'', my friends are coming back home soon I thought. My friends where out buying some food while I was home alone for about 25 min, it was at that point this stuff really got escalated.

I just had to beg to get back because the force was so intense, it was showing me how fake I was and trying to show me my true self, but I didn't go the whole way, I was a coward because I didn't want my friends to see me in that state, completely lost and confused. I tried to surrender, but the more I surrendered the more I was exposed. I realized that it was too much for me and I just said ''please, please, enough''. I slowly after that got myself back to a state where I could function.  I don't know what this force was but it feelt divine, like my higher self or something. It was in full control, I couldn't resist or fight it, that wouldn't have done thing easier, and it wouldn't be right in any way.