A BIG Insight! (Self-Enquiry)

[QandC]

I've been taking my meditation and self-enquiry to the next level and every day I have new insights and greater understanding, but today I might have had one of my biggest ones so far.

While self-enquiring I always try to reach a point of deep relaxation first or else it's just monkey mind shattering taking place. When I reach the point of feeling like my head is empty and the thoughts are very quiet that's when the self-enquiry truly starts. When doing this practice we can do it in 2 ways: 1. Asking through the ego. 2. Asking through the experience.

We want to ask through the experience. This means that we do not really ask ourselves who we are but rather try to feel what we are. I realised that "I" am awareness itself. Everything happening is part of my field of awareness. Let's say I feel something on my knee. Right at that point I am that feeling. I am that phenomena. Usually we say that I am the one experiencing this phenomena but if we take a closer look that phenomena is actually just what we are. This means that I am everything that is happening. I am basically nothing as well since you cannot define me into anything specific. 

My greatest struggle has been thinking I am the head, because there is this sense of vibration going on there. However, that vibration is just a part of the phenomena in the field of awareness. It does not have to be a me experiencing it but rather just experience happening as a part of this field of awareness which is all I am. 

My purpose in explaining this is that when we do enlightenment-work and self-enquiry or meditation, it is of great importance to become aware of our body and the sensations going on there. We usually mistake ourselves by thinking the body is ours and it experiences all the phenomena. But it is rather just a part of phenomena and has no greater value to what you think is You. 

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8 hours ago, QandC said:

I realized that "I" am awareness itself. Everything happening is part of my field of awareness.

Great insight indeed.