Help with motivation

[caelanb]

Hello, so I have been having a little bit of trouble getting myself to do the practises for enlightenment. I think this is due to all the other distractions around me, I am interest in doing the practises, however, if I have the opportunity to go and do fun stuff, like go to the movies or hang out with friends or something like that, I prefer doing that and not sitting doing and contemplation (which is quite difficult for me to to understand due to how subjective and how airy-fairy it is in my opinion).

It feels very boring (there is other stuff I could do) to sit doing for 30-60 minutes and contemplate or self-inquire or meditate (I do do this, however I have not been getting results) because I have no clue if I would be doing it right, my mind would just make me think I am going in the right direction. I guess I have been conditioned to the life of "doing" and "having" because that's what everyone else has been doing and that's all there really seems to be to do. Re-conditioning myself seems nearly impossible because of how much resistance I would encounter, my mind would come in and say, "what's the point, you'll never get anywhere and it will never not be boring, so why not stop now".

All in all, I would like some help in getting over the mental resistance of getting started and continuing with a practise because I don't think I would ever not get bored and give up sitting down for 30-60 minutes asking questions, when I would have no clue if I am going in the right direction. Is a samadhi experience or mystical state more blissful than amazing sexual intercourse or experiencing a very joyful moment both of which are a lot more practical.

I hope that makes sense, thank you.

[VioletFlame]

@caelanb Well it's certainly okay and understandable to want to chase fun recreational stuff and explore the outside world, but when it comes to these practices, if they truly interest you and are calling to you, then you must learn to simply keep it at or else you'll never truly know how deep it can take you so long as you're not committed to it or learning how to love it.

Try seeing it as embarking on an adventure, except it is an internal one. But it is a fucking voyage and a new experience every time. And the more you practice, trust me the easier it will become, like second nature. It will be challenging in the beginning, but if you make it into a priority, even if it means simplifying the duration of the practice at first and gradually working your way up through time, you'll feel so much better and eventually have some of the most amazing life changing experiences you could ever imagine or have ever dreamed of, if you simply allow them to arise.

The more you continue these practices, there will be tremendous results over time. I can't tell you when, but you must trust and believe that it will. Belief is an incredibly powerful tool.

Also as long as you are breathing fluidly and comfortably each time and training yourself each time to focus on that very present experience and looking deep within, then you will take off and you will transition.

In the beginning, there will be times where you will sit and it won't feel so bad. Other times you will sit and it may seem pointless or confusing..or aimless thoughts/feelings will appear, drift, come & go...you may sit and suddenly you begin to cry or you may have other particular reactions that may surprise you but which must be released, so let everything go that is yearning to be released....But then other times you will sit and you will feel the most inexplicable love and joy for every single aspect of life and gratitude for simply breathing. You may thank the experience and yourself for showing up as well.♥ 

There's so much psyche and soul journeying within these practices and so much to experience, and are so powerful, ultimately so worth it. Everyone has different reasons, but I got off anti-depressant medication five years ago (on them way too young) and discovered they were poison so I resorted to these practices and I was healed faster within 6 months of deep meditative practices and tripping on mushrooms than 3 years of talk therapy and manipulative medication ever tried to do, or could've done. Those things for me anyway, only added more fuel to the fire, it was suffering.

Edited December 24, 2018 by VioletFlame

[purerogue]

If you are k with your life that is fine, come back when it will change , it is hard to resonate when you think that your life will always be good and this and that has to give you something over the top to make you even to move out of your comfort zone, because that is what you will have to do and your life will  probably be worse for long time, it is not some ecstasy land.

[Chase Ellfeldt]

Is media getting in the way? Cut out technology and your brain will have more space to think.