My meditation journal

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45 min meditation today as well. Nice groove.

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45 min meditation today as well. Gosh. It is so necessary to meditate. I always go through very intense emotional cycles, but meditation seems to clear it out over and over, and renew my vitality. It even seems like the emotional cycles becomes fuel for transformation.

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45 min meditation today. Very nice meditation. Powerful and vitalizing. Deep stillness.

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45 min meditation yesterday and 45 min meditation today. Very sweet <3

Edited November 12, 2024 by Thittato

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Some disruption to my meditation routine, but then I've sat for 45 min friday, saturday and sunday again.

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Some disruption to my meditation routine again. Drifted over into a yoga period. Then I started sitting again on monday. So:

Monday: 45 min meditation

Tuesday: 45 min meditation

Wednesday (today): 45 min meditation.

Somehow it is interesting that I allow myself to be more lazy with this meditation project these days. Maybe it is a good thing in this ever on-going fine-tuning of finding the perfect balance between effort and surrender.

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45 min meditation today. Some disruption to my meditation routine lately, but I'm keeping up with other practices - kettlebells, yoga, ice-bathing, breathing exercises, guitar and mantra-singing.

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45 min meditation today as well. Nice to experience the mind settling down into ease, acceptance and stillness again. Time to land a lot of the stuff that has been going on the last couple of months.

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45 min meditation today as well. Went through a pretty strong and difficult emotional wave, but seemingly it was processed and accepted, the resistance towards it dissolved and I melted into the pain and the pain became beautiful and now I feel very relieved and empowered.

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45 min meditation today as well. I'm going through some pain these days related to my and my girlfriend having just broken up. This time I feel confident that for once in my life I can sit with this pain, instead of running around in a crazy search for something outside of myself to alliviate the pain. Today it was a big relief, with all the emotions and thoughts churning in me related to all of this, that I can just sit down on my cushion and breathe into the pain, instead of letting the mind run around like crazy.

Now after the meditation, I'm still in some pain, but it has clearly been alliviated. Yesterday. Oh my gosh. That was really the power of meditation. I was completely liberated from the pain and in such a flow state for the whole day. But I can expect this to come and go in waves.

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45 min meditation today as well. Very nice flow 🙏💫

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45 min meditation today as well. My half-lotus position is opening up again and becoming much softer.

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45 min meditation today as well. I'd be very currious about what could happen to my meditation now. It really feels like I can just sit with whatever is arising without buying into the mental loop that is trying to get my mind engaged in "survival strategies." Another way to put it - all the tricks the mind is trying to use to convince me something is wrong with the present moment. There is a deep pleasure and satisfiction in just feeling fully into all the different types of suffering - especially when the resistance is seen through. In psychotherapeutic terms this could be seen as a willingness to put down the defenses in order to experience the pain.