My meditation journal

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45 min meditation today as well. A bit more restlessness and stuff today. Just trying to be fully honest with whatever is going on. That can sometimes be difficult when wanting to reproduce the good momentum from the days before.

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45 min meditation today. No meditation yesterday. I was getting a pretty strong cold in the evening two days ago. Been home from work. Good to meditate again today. Still not well, but better.

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45 min meditation today as well. Very nice. Breathing into vulnerability and openness.

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45 min meditation today as well. Really nice. It is more than 5 weeks ago since I stopped smoking weed now. Yesterday was a big challenge. I was visiting some friends I used to smoke with. I don't drink alcohol anymore either, so I sort of had "nothing to come with." But after the initial shock I settled into the groove, and it gave me a great sense of mastery that I can be social without substances. It is like with all social groups. The insecurities are usually strongest in the beginning of the meeting, then one starts to tune into each other and find some common theme for the evening, people start to relax more, and it gets more and more fun. So I woke up with a great sense of mastery, and brought that with me into the meditation and was feeling a lot of gratitude for my path as I sat in meditation.

Edited March 26, 2023 by Thittato

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1 hour meditation this morning. So nice. Really melting into the experience. Very nice when everything softens up, a bright colour develops behind my closed eye-lids, and I feel like a soft and warm ball of healing energy sitting there that my body has melted into, and the breath is connected with every parts of my being.

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45 min meditations this morning as well. Amazing sit. Lots of gratitude and energy.

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And then 20 min vinyasa flow yoga and 30 min meditation as I came home from work. Wow. So nice. I think this time I will be able to maintain a daily meditation practice and then also maintain a regular yoga-practice next to it. The yoga might not be daily, but at least several times per week. Enough to cover my needs for physical exercise and supplement my meditation practice with something movement-based that also enhances the meditation.

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20 min vinyasa flow yoga, and then 45 min sitting meditation. Very nice :-)

Edited March 29, 2023 by Thittato

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And then a second session of 20 min vinyasa flow yoga, and then 20 min meditating in full lotus. I'm exploring full lotus as a bridge between moving yoga and sitting meditation. Very nice.

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20 min vinyasa flow when I woke up, and now later in the day I just finished 45 min of sitting-meditation. Both the yoga and the meditation felt very beautiful today. Gratitude.

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And then 25 min yin yoga now in the late evening. Wow. So beautiful and nice. Focus was just to use the yin as an opportunity to surrender into my situation in life. Before this I was chatting with ChatGPT on the fact that I've been staying in the same job for 5 years now, and the opportunities and personal growth that comes from fully embracing my current situation. ChatGPT had some really awesome things to say about this, so I also asked it to give me some inspiring thoughts for how to use yin yoga to really sink into this understanding. It was pretty awesome what it had to say. It seems like chatting a little bit with ChatGPT every day is becoming a part of my routine.

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45 min meditation today as well. Wow. Pretty awesome.

Edited March 31, 2023 by Thittato

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And then 25 min yin yoga just before I went to my job to work night-shift, and then another session of the same right when I came home again. Super-ultra-nice.

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45 min meditation today as well. Wow. So good. Since I did yoga in the morning I have already done my yoga for the day too, even though my body craves more. But I'll go for a walk in the sun with a nice buddy instead.

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45 min meditation early in the morning, and 45 min meditation now in the afternoon. Very nice.

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And then 25 min yin yoga as I came home from working night-shift the whole weekend. Ah. Pretty nice way to round things off before I go to bed.

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And then in the evening first 20 min vinyasa flow yoga and then 25 min yin yoga. Pretty sweet. I also did a longer session on ChatGPT on my yoga-practice, and my fascination with these two programs, and ChatGPT mirrored back a lot of useful things.

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45 min meditation yesterday, and 45 min meditation today. Very nice :-)

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No meditation yesterday. 45 min meditation today. Some difficult process opened up yesterday, but I'm tired of elaborting on this stuff, so I'll try to deal with it just from a meditative point of view. It felt nice to sit in the fire of it today. I just have to continue to learn to not be afraid of difficult feelings and continue to face them, and not run away. Surrender into it.

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45 min meditation today. Very nice. Something was triggered so I fell out of my meditation practice for a few days, but now things seems to land again.