Tempted by the Dark Side

[Andrey]

Hey guys. A few years ago I posted a comment here, that it would be easier for me to go to the moon than getting a girlfriend. I don't mean to brag, but nowadays some of the hottest girls I meet are hitting on me, I don't even have to do anything. But with the great power comes great responsibility. I'm in a serious relationship and this girl is a great fit. We are in a loving relationship. However, I didn't have time to burn through this sexuality thing, so nowadays I get tempted all the time by other females. This is messing even with my concentration skills, it is burning me. I know It is not wise to follow my urge and go fuck a bunch of women, I am trying to redirect all this energy but it is so much I get overwhelmed. I can't trust myself. I want these girls, and I want my girl also. It's cognitive dissonance and it is a waste of energy. My question is: if I eventually go chase women, will this desire eventually burn out? Right now my paradigm is that it won't. I feel like this sexual desire is entangled with life itself. Will I be chasing rabbits forever?

[Psychonaut]

I think it will be like porn. Eventually you get bored of it. Its just watching a different movie, but you are watching a movie everytime.

[Pharion]

@Andrey Im assuming you've talked to your girlfriend about it? It's possible that you can have both, unlikely, but atleast make sure that isn't an option. Whatever you do, the main thing is: do it honestly. If you're GF isn't okay with it, but you still really want to do that, then tell her straight up this is my decision, and i have to break up with you. If you decide your GF is more important than commit to that, and get rid of the distractions from other women. This is a test of values VS ego, so whatever you decide, go with values. Keep your integrity. It's tempting to try to get both by going around her back, but that means your letting your ego control you, and showing yourself that you are spineless. It's not an easy thing to deal with, but silver lining is that it's a big test of character, and if you pass, that will be an acheivement that will build your character and integrity

[NoSelfSelf]

Embrace the darkside or it will always be here but how did you turn it around share some mayor shifts you encountered?